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2010-10-14T15:12:00.000+08:00

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2010-05-24T10:12:00.000+08:00

Huhu, hello ! I'm currently at school, free period of IT lesson *wink . My blog is seriously dead like hell . Hahahah ! Younger brother is currently at KK Hospital :O . Fractured his right leg and left hand . I think his operation is over already . Shall text mum or e.brother soon ;D . Okay, i gotta go already . Bbye , have a good life ♥

Don’t live your life to please other people.

2010-04-25T18:23:00.000+08:00

This blog is so so dead !! :O ! Sorry luhs, I don't have any news to updated you readers . I wonder if there is any readers here . hahaha ! Do tag me at formspring , not my tagboard . And I'm removing my tagboard, soon . I will be deleting my blog . maybe. I'm only active in plurk, facebook & private blog :] Alright, that's all . Bbye .
♥ , I'm giving up .

Time to do the things I like

2010-04-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to Funan Mall with Iqyn & Aliyah . Aliyah wanted to repair her Ipod Nano that was soaked in water for less than a min, haha ! After that, went around Penin, they bought t-shirts. After that, make our way to Marina Square. Went in Zara. Woahhh, I want the tee, haha . Save duit perlan2 xD . Went to Fourskin to survey e.brother and ♥'s birthday present. Nahh, nothing interesting. But Aliyah showed me the badges. They sell name badges. Aper lagy, searched for N and T lor, ahhaa ! It was on 50% sale . 2 for $1.90, grab lor ;] . After that, walked around Marina Square. After that, train-ed to Bugis Junction. Searched for the shop ' Gift A Name' . Spend some time there, choosing what kind of keychains I want to personalized. After some suggestions from Aliyah, I did a combination of T & N and a single coloured letter of T & N each. Spend $13.40 for 4 letters :| . Nevermind, worth it, I guess (?) . Then trained to Tmall, headed to Long John Silver as I told Raihan we'll be eating there, haha . Tk bgos uhs the service. I go to his counter, yknow how he adressed me ? " Ahh, aper kau nk ?" Aper nyer service nie ? While eating, texted ♥ , woots ~ ! Okay, dah , cukop. hahah ! Mum called say no need to rush home, they going out already, (Y) . Walked to DMK and bought new sandals that cost me $19.90 . -.-' . Haiyo, nevermind . Ehh, asl sume bende aku beli sume worth it ? ahahah ! Then walked around for awhile and home sweet home ;D . Bbyee . ♥, imissu luhs ! Cpat sikit Saturday smpi !!

You make a whole lot different ! ♥

2010-04-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

Presents from Shyraa, Amoro & Ibnor ;

Ibnor's ;

Amarly's present ;

Atikah's card ;

Yana's & Amoro's cards + the two xtras-Terence & Hasan ;

Khai's present :

Thank u all for the mini celebration during recess time, birthday wishes & presents . U guys really make my day an enjoyable & memorable one ! ;D . And for Atikah & Winson, thank you for wishing me when midnight strucks. Aliyah, thanks for taking the trouble to strain ur eyes just so u could wish me right on 12AM . haha, nevermind, it's okay . Thank u gf ;D . Thank you ♥ for wishing me eventhough you're late. And for (insert name), its okay if u didn't wish me. I'm alright, it didnt hurt much now . Thanks for everything ;D .

Love doesn’t trap someone in being in a relationship, and love doesn’t make someone feel guilty for living their lives.

2010-04-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

#46 - $75 - Size M
BEBE LOGO black tee shirt peace sign .
Mum, I want that shirt, can ? ♂ . huhu ^^ . Nvm luhs, since you're getting me the coach purse I wanted . ;D . 15th birthday, okay ? Chey, by the time aku 15, baju nie dah tk lawa siaa . Ade stock bru, haha !
Today went to Peranakan Museum for learning journey . It was super fucking boring . First, the place is small . And, the tour guide is our students ?? wth ! -.-' . So the merepek mannz ! Okay, skip the learning journey .
Maths lesson uhs ! WOOTS ~ ! ^^^^^^^ ♥ ~! hahaha ! Maiseyy lehh, alermak . Mdm Seah lagy, boleh tahan kpoy, haha . After Maths had P.E . Woah, run non-stop lehh . Staircase run, 3 rounds & catching . LOL ! Urmm, what more to blog ? This Friday is MTP session . Woah, piang mannz ! Got FDS training lagy . Haizz . Very busy ehk aku this week . Then on Saturday, birthday party at ... CLEMENTI ! Hah kau, jaoh siolz ! Alright, I'm off . Byez ! xD

"You can’t tell someone you love them and then change your mind. That’s not how it works. Once you love someone, you always love them. Isn’t there a part of you that thinks of him for no reason? They’ll always be in the back of your mind. And no matter how much you love someone else, you’ll always love them too."

The sky is the limit ~

2010-04-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

Hah ! Read that girls ♂ . HAHAH ! Heylo readers ! I know, my blog is very very boring . I'm lazy to blog already luh . Haiyaa . Okayy, I'm back from Woodlands, celebrated Zura's 18th Birthday ;D . Photos, fb ehk . On my way back to Tamp, txted ♥ . ^^ . Atikah luhs nie, pakse msg , ahaha ! Nvm, worth trying ehk Atkh , hehe :| . WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~ ! Okayy, bbyeeeeee .
Once you’ve been hurt, you’re never exactly the same ever again. Whether it be because you suffered a loss of a close friend or of a significant other, you’re hurt all the same. I guess it’s the fact that you let someone in so deep, the fact that you gave someone your complete all, just for them to change their minds and walk away in the end. You look back at what was shared, and what could have been and then a deep pain resonates from the pit of your chest, because remembering all these things just amplifies the reality of how things will never be the same. And shit, what can you do? Some of us have too much pride to go back to fix anything, or the situation just isn’t in anyone’s favor, and the best solution is to just walk away.Your mind and your heart are two very fragile things. Like they say; once you’ve been broken, you’ll never be fully fixed. We learn that it’s in our best interests if we don’t let people in too far, or to trust endlessly. We learn to never expect anything, because we’re all human, and were bound to disappoint. Although we may move on and get over the pain, there will always be a part of us that is cautious so as to avoid getting hurt all over again. The heart may have an infinite capacity to love, but the mind can only endure so much damage until it goes insane.

It's like the very first time .

2010-03-31T23:32:00.000+08:00

HHooollaaaaaaa ! I don't knw what to update about . Urmm, yesterday, we had P.O.P . Drills - Eat - Final Farewell . And, that'a all (?) haha ! Haiyaa, I don't knw what to talk abt . Everyday, it's the same thing that happens . 15more days horr ! ^^^^ ! Okay, byee .

“ if he truly cared about the way you feel, he wouldn’t have done the same thing to hurt you another time. someone who loves you wants the best for you, whatever makes you happy- that should make them happy, so you do in return. that’s the way real relationships work when you’re in love. ”

I remember every word you once said .

2010-03-27T21:48:00.001+08:00

Hey readers ! I'm back from Camp Steel ;D . The camp was fun, overall . Didn't get the chance to play Paintball & do M.O.C because of the bad weather :( . The food was awesome ! I love it ! haha . During the Compass presentation & Opening session lecture, I slept. haha . Was too sleepy to listen what they're talking. There's truckloads of hwk to be done by tmrw ! :O . One letter writing, one compo; Malay and maths . Maths, can go die . hahah ! Just draw the diagram, go to sch & copy teacher's solution . haha . Bgos kan aku, bdk express mahh ^^ . LOL ! Don't follow what I did uhs, siao .
Yesterday was forced to support the rugby boys :S . Both SC & CCAC were supposed to be there, pfft ! Nvm, at least they won ;D . The scores, err, idk uhs . I dont even understand hw they count the scores . hahahha ! After supporting, went to 'watch' fds training . Then home sweet home ~ ;] Alright, I'm done blogging . And finally, my formspring is okay ;DD . U may ask me any question . Feel free hor :D . And got this idk who, commented on some of my post . Haiya, u comment in chinese, how do u expect me understand ? HAHAHA !

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“ To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about it, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride, and its not about how you appear, and it’s not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isnt blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind in confidence for the future. Letting go is learning, experiencing, and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. letting go is growing up. it is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, to clear a path and let yourself free. ”

It’s funny how you still love the person, but you just stop needing them like you used to.

2010-03-21T16:40:00.000+08:00

Bold the truth ;

You are female
You are in high school
You dropped out of high school
Bold what's true .
You graduated within the last 5 years
You live on your own
You live within 20 minutes of your best friend
You live within 20 minutes of the last person you kissed
You live within 20 minutes of your ex
You have hugged someone in the last 48 hours
You have been to the movies within the last week
You have had 3 or more boyfriends/girlfriends just this year
You have been a designated driver
You have broken merchandise and not paid for it
You have played strip poker
You are atheist
You recycle regularly
You are a brunette
You have dated a blonde
You are friends with a redhead
You are taller than your mom
You have a checking account
You’ve written a check for less than $5
You have visited the Statue of Liberty
You have visited the Eiffel Tower
You have visited Big Ben
You have visited the Coliseum
You have visited The Great Wall of China
You have never been out of the country
You have been a waiter/waitress
You own a Bible
You own something with a Pentagram on it
You have used a Ouija Board
You have been a witch for Halloween
You have been a zombie for Halloween
You have been a Disney character for Halloween
You don’t celebrate Halloween
You have your belly button pierce
You have your tongue pierced
You have your eyebrow pierced
You have a Monroe piercing
You have your nose pierced
You have an ankle tattoo
You have a wrist tattoo
You have a back tattoo
You have no tattoos
You have more than 5 tattoos
You straighten your hair
You have worn a dress in the last 3 days
You live somewhere that gets snow
You celebrate Hanukkah
You were at your own house last New Year’s
You were at a bar last New Year’s
You slept through last New Year’s
You have worked on Christmas Eve
You have worked on Christmas
You have been told ‘I love you’ by someone today
You were told by someone not who’s not family
You slept in your own bed last night
You are dating the last person you kissed
You regret kissing the last person you kissed
You enjoyed your last kiss
You are wearing a necklace right now
You are wearing something red
You are wearing something blue
You are wearing something purple
Your phone is fully charged
Your phone number ends with an even number
You have kissed the last person you called/texted
You last called/texted a boy
You are currently listening to music
You are waiting for something
You don’t like seafood
You have eaten deer sausage
You have given a complete stranger your phone number
You have been hit on at work
You have been hit on by someone more than 20 years older than you
You have been whistled at
You were creeped out by it
You are a good speller
You are very punctual
You were dating someone in December of 2008
You are still dating that person
You have cheated on someone
You have been cheated on
You have been on a cruise ship
You have camped out in your own backyard
You are wearing something that doesn’t belong to you
You are a Pisces
You are a Leo
You are a Capricorn
You have Irish heritage
You have Polish heritage
You have Japanese heritage
You have Israeli heritage
You have German heritage
You have Portuguese heritage
You have French heritage
You have Norwegian heritage
You have Korean heritage
You were born in May
You were born in June
You were born in October
You wonder what will happen when you die
You are afraid of the dark
You write in all capital letters
You have been told you have nice handwriting
You have had a song written for you
You have had a picture drawn of you
You have curly hair
Your phone provider is Sprint
Your phone provider is AT&T
Your phone provider is Verizon
You live within an hour of your birthplace
You are wearing a watch
You are wearing flip flops
You wouldn’t date someone who smoked
You know someone with the same birthday as you
You are a morning person
You are a night owl
You slept in past 10am today
You have big plans for next weekend
You are thinking of someone right now
Your job is stressing you out
You don’t have a job
You have never had a job
You were fired from your last job
You know sign language
You made your bed today
You will usually try something at least once
You have been swimming in the last month
You are pessimistic by nature
You have taken a ballet class
You have taken karate
You have taken gymnastics
You wish on shooting stars
You wish at 11:11
Your birthday has already come this year
You have been in a relationship that lasted longer than a year
You ended your last relationship
Your ex ended your last relationship
You are over your ex
You have gone after someone you knew was bad for you
You have let someone use you
You have been in a physically abusive relationship
You are engaged
You are married
You are divorced
You have a child
You were/are a teenage mom
You were named after someone
You like your name
Your last drink was water
You have visited somewhere said to be ‘haunted’
You have skipped school just because you didn’t feel like going
You have taken medicine when you ‘feel a headache coming on’
You are self-conscious about your body
You have a hangover
You have had a Jehovah’s Witness show up at your house
You have pet fish
You live on a farm
You live in a trailer
You live in Montana
You live in South Carolina
You live in Illinois
You live in Maryland
You live in New Mexico
You have godparents
You have step-siblings
You are the oldest
You are adopted
You have a twin
You don’t want kids
You want more than four kids
You have a bad temper
You have made out with a complete stranger
You usually make the first move in an intimate situation
You have worked with a Kayla
You have gone to the movies with a Jared
You have hugged a Lexie
You have held hands with a Marcus
You have dated a Rachel
You have kissed a David
You have ridden in a car with a Nicole
You have had class with a Patrick
You have gone out to eat with a Chloe
You know a Kyle in the military
You are related to a Julie
You have gotten drunk with a Brent
You have broken your arm
You have had to get stitches on your face
You have had an MRI
Your fingernails are painted
Your fingernails are painted black
You like to read
You like to cook
You like to draw
You can play an instrument
You keep a lot of secrets from people
You don’t think people would accept you if they really got to know you
You don’t trust people easily
You borrowed something you really need to give back to someone
You drive a car older than a 2002
You have lost a friend you never thought you would
You know a child who died of cancer
You know a teenager who died in a car wreck
You have done something illegal in the past 24 hours
You have cut your hair in the last week
You wear glasses
You have been pulled over for speeding
You love to drive with the windows down
Your favorite season is Autumn
Your favorite color is orange
Your favorite animal is a dolphin
You last rode in a car with a relative
You last rode in a car with a girl
You last rode in a car with the person you are dating
You regularly watch soap operas
You love Italian food
You love Mexican food
You love Chinese food
You can see a box of tissues from where you are
You can see your reflection in a mirror
You can see what’s on tv from where you are
Your best friend is older than you
You have to go to school/work tomorrow
You answered every question truthfully

Ehk, hello readers ! Here I am to update ;D .
Yesterday went to Orchard and watch Remember Me with Jan ;) Sadly, Aliyah couldn't join us as she's sick :( . Get well soon gf ! So, bus-ed to interchange and train-ed to City Hall, alone . My very first time traveling all alone . haha . So, met Jan at City Hall and train-ed to Orchard . We were lost when we reached Orchard, ahaha ! Bukan sesat aper, due2 tk nmpk signboard . Kecik sgt tuu signboard . So, bought our tickets and walked to 313@Somerset. Around 4.15pm, went in the cineplex . The cineplex was fucking big . haha ! The biggest I've ever went . While waiting for the movie to start, we talked about the past . I didn't cry okay . Strong ehk ? hahah ! Biase :P . While watching, cik Azian called . But I didn't feel the vibration . So, I texted her . She asked me to tag along to watch Disney On Ice @ the Indoor Stadium . haha . So, after the movie, bought 2 Snackers and cab-ed to Indoor Stadium . Konon nyer nk byr ader duit, skali short $1.45 . haha ! Call pakcik, suroh tambah kan duit . (LOL) . I was late for the show, 25-30mins, I think .The show ended at around 9pm . I give 4/5 uhs . Kids show mahh . But the effects was cool & nice . Okay, I'm done blogging . Chao !

“ When you remember me, it means that you have carried something of who I am with you, that I have left some mark of who I am on who you are. It means that you can bring me back to your mind even though countless years and miles may stand between us. It means that if we meet again, you will know me. It means that even after I die, you can still see my face and hear my voice and speak to me in your heart. For as long as you remember me, I am never entirely lost. ”

I thought that was that

2010-03-18T19:23:00.000+08:00

Holaaaaaa ! I'm back from camp ! I swear it was fucking boring . The food simply sucks . Sec One camp & NCC camp last year was waayyyy much better than this combined camp. Lucky there's no feedbacks. If not, a hell lot of us will complain about the same thing, haha . I'm not going to elaborate further, cause I'm lazy to type everything here. And further more, there's nothing much to talk about. We played Telematch, Amazing Race. Did field cooking, morning PT and campfire. That's it . Boring much, right ? tskk . Okay, going out on Sat . Gonna watch How to Train Your Dragon Train . Or something like that. The title is long. Alright, I'm done here . Bbye .

"Look where you're heading to . Don't regret about it later on. Think hard about it. Think about what you're doing now. Think ahead, think about your future. Reflect on your own doings. "

Love is unexpected. And love is not forced. Good things happen to those who wait. You have your whole life ahead of you to look forward to. So why is it that we aren’t patient with love? Why is it that we’re self-centered and our thoughts are consumed of our wants and needs more than anything else? Have we forgotten about others? “I ended up falling in love with you, because I needed someone around, because I hate being alone.” That’s not love. Love will come to you when it’s time. Don’t look for love, don’t go searching for your soulmate. He/she will come along before you know it. And soon enough, you’ll realize that there’s nothing better out there than a love that’s real. So is love not worth the wait?

Why ruin a perfectly good flower when you know he loves you not ?

2010-03-15T17:58:00.000+08:00

Ehk, hi readers ! Thank you for reading my blog & sorry, I didn't upate my blog for 5 days. I'm lazy to type, actually. There's nothing to share, u see. Hmmm, tmrw is Tuesday(haha!) The start of UG Camp ! pffffttt . Fuck mannz ! Bru nk g Sentosa, World Resorts opening or whatever event that is going to take place there tmrw.
Yesterday, went to watch Being Human with elder brother and younger sister . Elder brother's treat (Y) . hah, his idea was to go out . And I suggested that we watch movie, lol . Since I'm watching Alice In The Wonderland this Friday, watch 'Being Human' lor . Went out at around 5.55pm and reached Century Square on time, hah . Saw Fizah and she thought my elder brother was my new boyfriend (?) Wth . haha .
The movie was awesome ! Eventhough it's rated as comedy, it was quite sad liao . Cried twice. Got one part, I was about to cry and Mark Lee woke up. -.-' . Then I realised that was his dream, hahaha . I give the movie 4.5/5 ;D .
Today did the house chores and pack my bag for camp. Punyer luhs mls nk pergi . TSKKKKK !
Vivy just facebook-ed me, asking to go prawning. Lucky she said Saturday night. Phew ! Kalau Tues or Wed or Thurs, woah . Mmg siakk uhs tuu camp . Dah luhs tkleh g Sentosa. Setakat book in lmbt pon tk boleh, kccb btol . Dad is back from i don't where . And here comes my hp bill ! :O ! :O ! I checked already, only $36.50. (dance) (rock) (party) . HAHA . Lowest in the history of my hp bills ;DD . Msges, tetap lebih dri 1000, 4000+ msges, hees :/ . Okay, I think this post is long enough. Bbye ! ;]

"Without all the broken hearts and failed relationships, no one would learn anything. If love really lasted for as long as we actually wanted it to, she would still be with him, and he would still be with her."

Love can touch just one time, but it can last for a life time.

2010-03-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

FUCK LOVE,
FUCK YOU .
" U deserve someone better . "
" I know, thanks for reminding ."

NOTHING was perfect, but EVERYTHING was REAL.

2010-03-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

Woah, I don't know what to blog abt . hahak. Today had Chemistry TA. It was manageable, hopefully I pass . Amin ;DD . Bsok tk tau kene g skola ke tk. Amek karangan competition nyer results. Woah, mls nyer aku nk bgn g skola, pfft. Kalau tk pon, g Changi. siakk ! Malas nyer nk g beach . Changi ader tempat sewa basikal tk ? hahak, tkde agaknyer . Woah, mendak siol gituu.
I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED !
Kak Ima : Naq, bsok kak ima dtg umah k. pki computer jap.
Me : Okay, no problem. What time ?
Kak Ima : Aftr werk. around b4 6.
Me : Okay, no problem. C u tmrw ;D
Kak Ima : ok go!!
Me : Hahak. V + 7up, okay go !
Kak Ima : Msg kau ni, aku simpan. tunjuk bpk kau. jeng . jeng. jeng.
Me : Ehk ! Jgn paoto luhs . Hahak .
Kak Ima, I know, you'll keep my secrets kann ? Hehehe :| . Hah, iloveu ♥ . Okay, I'm outta here . I'm fucking blank right now.
AND ! I'M HAVING HEAT RASH ! AND ! IT'S KILLING MEE ! COZ IT'S FUCKING ITCHY ! I CAN'T CONCENTRATE ON REVISING CHEMISTRY YESTERDAY NIGHT .

There is nothing sadder in this life than to watch

someone you love walk away after they have left you.
To watch the distance between your two bodies expand
until there is nothing left but empty space and silence.

To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful.

2010-02-28T14:42:00.001+08:00

When you're thinking about how much you miss me, and I'm completely fine, remember how I felt, and remind yourself this is what you wanted. Because with every day coming and going, I'm learning how to be okay without you. And I can't wait for the day when I get to look at you and feel absolutely nothing.

2010-02-28T03:03:00.000+08:00

Currently at aunt's house . Time checked : 3.05am :O . Im still widely awake. Currently texting Atikah and plurk-ing like an idiot. No one response to my plurks, ahaha. Tkper, nk boost karma mahh ;]] .

Friday, went to fav aunt house. Reach her house around 3+ pm. Iffah was asleep. So, talked to fav aunt. Around 4+ or 5+, Abg Faizal and his wife, Kak Rina came. Kak Rina bought along the cheesecake I ordered, weee . haha . Helped fav aunt to baby sit and fry the nuggets. Was fucking hungry while waiting for Abg Faizal to come. Fav aunt cooked Ayam Masak Merah, wee . My favourite liao :P ^^ . Planned to go back home around 9+pm, but I'm so lazy to go back home. And at the same time, Kak Ina asked me to tag along, to prawning . I was wondering what the hell is prawning until she tells me that prawning is like fishing, LOL . Merepek uhs cuzin aku. SO, called dad and told him im sleeping over at aunt's house and will be back by the next afternoon . But I'm not home, huahua .

So, cab-ed to St 45 and fetch Kelly and make our way to Changi Village. Bought CR ( for u readers to find out and for me to knw more.) and Coke and plastic cups. Then cab-ed to Pasir Ris Interchange and meet Khai and Vivy. Walked to the Prawning area, i don't know what's that place called, hahak . Khai's birthday treat ;] . Padehal birthday lagi 3 tahun lagi, 29th Feb mahh. Too bad ehk Khai, haha. So, reached there at around 11+pm, almost midnight. Started prawning. Through out the 4hours we're there, from 11+pm till 3+am, we only caught 12 prawns in total ! HAHAH . 3prawns per hour, ahaha . I caught 4 prawns uhs :P . First time siol . Khai drank too much of CR + Coke till he vomit three times . tsktsk . Tuu luhs, dah lamer tk minum kann, haha . So, around 3+, 4am, cab-ed to Vivy's place. Before that Kelly bought 7Up and V(for u readers to find out , and for me to knw more.) already . So, Kak Ina make us each a cup of 7Up + V . And I swear, it is much much better than CR + Coke. Better in the sense of smell and taste. I was too sleepy till I fell asleep, haha. Woke up around 9+am, Kak Ina called the cab and I drank the whole cup of 7Up + V . Was too thirsty and can't resist the temptation of the drink, hahak . Reached aunt's place around 10+am . Was quite fresh at that point of time. But I fell asleep around 12 noon, hees. Headache siaa. Sleep till around 4pm. Woke up and bathe, siakk . Then when I came out from the toilet, everyone was asleep; aunt, Kak Ina and Kak Ima, haha. Uncle was out. My left eyes was red. Maybe bcoz of 7Up + V uhs, haiyo. Played lappy from 4+ till 6+pm . And then off to Afghan around 8pm .

Okay, I'm done blogging . Night readers ;DD .

" When I hear your voice., it's drowning in a whisper. It's just skin and bones, there's nothing left to take. If you fall, stumble down, I'll pick you up off the ground. If you lose faith in you, I'll give you strength to pull through. Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall. You know I'll be there for you. I wish, I could save you. "

Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.

2010-02-25T00:09:00.000+08:00

I need to just keep reminding myself that you no longer matter. Your personal business is your personal business.
I’m better off not knowing a single thing.

To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful.

2010-02-24T22:25:00.001+08:00

And I ain't missing you at all . Since you've been gone. I ain't missing you .No matter what I might say.

Fuck Love,
Fuck You .

Moving on is simple, it’s what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.

2010-02-21T01:48:00.001+08:00

I gave all of my trust didn't think being faithful was asking too much. But I'm good, glad that I know now I was fooled but fate let me see how they say, every tear has it's reasons and every smile has it's own season. Never once thought you would be this trifling but oh, I was blinded ... Since love made me blind, you made a fool of me. You made it look so perfect when it wasn't meant to be.Your love made me blind. Cause I felt your lips pressed against mine, thought the sweet smell of your perfume was all mine. That love made me blind so I could'nt see all the lies you told were right in front of me. Cause I honestly believed in you. Holding on as the days drag on. Stupid girl I should've known, I should've known.

no matter how much it kills it hurts it tears me apart,

i'll close one eye and say,
maybe your life's too fucked up.
and so you need time.
i wish you cared how much tears i've spared.

"what goes around comes around, what goes up must come down"

The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn’t want to be held on to.

2010-02-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

Friday, went for Karangan competition at RI . Went there with 5 other Malay students and Cikgu Rahani. Took Maxi Cab, :P . The karangan competition was kinda tough :O . When I received the paper, I looked at Ruzanna and she looked at me, ahaha . We were both blank . Of course luhs, even our End-Of-Year malay paper 1 isn't that tough. But finally, I got an idea on what to write about :] . We finished the essay at around 5+pm . Went back to school and meet the rest of the PDS/FDS members. Then off to Food Palace with Alya, Mora, Hilman, Zaki, Adam, JJ, Dinie, Hendra, Hady and Haikal. Ate Mango Pudding, haha . Went back home around 7+pm :] .
Saturday, went to Kenduri at Fika's house. Went there with Aliyah . After that, went to meet Hilman and Adam at Mac ;] Sat there and talked . Sempat gossip sia, hahak ! :| . Shhhhh :DD . Went bck home around 11+pm and went online . ;]
Good night readers.

"You fail to see the one who loves you standing right in front as does she fail to see you love her in turn. Don't wait to tell her because it might be to late then."

Don't fall for someone until they're ready to catch u .

2010-02-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

Time checked : 12.06am . I'm not sleepy . I'm f.bored mannz ! Aper nk uat mlm2 bute nie . Currently plurking and chatting with Jannatul Hazirah & Benjamin . ;] . I miss Benjamin manzz ! Okay, bye bye . Good Night !

If I had my life to live again, next time I would give u more kisses & hold u closer . I would memorize everything u ever said to me & carry it to my heart like a poem. If I had life to live over again, next time I would find u sooner so I could love u longer & better & truer .

2010-02-16T21:28:00.000+08:00

My 240 post ;DD . Okay, my comp is back to normal, weeee ;]] . Errr, a little update, okay ?
I didn't attend the BBQ Pit on mum's side . Was lazy to go . East Coast somemore, fucking far mann ! So, stayed at home, did the chores and Aliyah came to movie marathon and accompanied me, hees . Thanks yaw. Around 8.30pm, went to Kak Rini's house and met fav aunt there . Then went to Cik Man's house, send Iffah home :] . Sleepover at fav aunt's house for night .
Woke up at 8+am . Was awaken by fav aunt . Wake up, talked with fav aunt for awhile and went to take a bath . After bathing, went to Kak Rina's house, took the brownies and went back to fav aunt's place and waited for uncle. After that, went to Iffah's house for the cukur rambut event. Blah blah blah, went back home at around 12+am, uncle send me home , hahs .
Err, I guess that's all uhs . I don't know what to blog liao . Backbone check-up on Thursday and Karangan competition on Friday , haiya ! Okay, bye . I'm blank already, haha .

2010-02-11T18:26:00.002+08:00

HI ! I'm not going to update my blog for a long time . There's some problem with my computer . Sorry . Bye bye , take care ;D

A broken heart continues to beat.

2010-01-25T22:57:00.000+08:00

LOVE is overcoming obstacles, facing challeges, fighting to be together, HOLDING ON & NEVER LETTING GO . ♥

I LOVE MATHS ! Kay, random sia aku . Err, currently messaging Atikah, listening to musics, plurking and nothing else . I don't know what to blog about uhs . Ahhhhhh ! MR KOH IS FREAKING HOT & CUTE ! huahuahua :P . MELTZ . Tpi kan, it's his last week teaching in Junyuan . Sedih nyer . Alah Mr Koh, u become the permanent teacher in our sch uhs . Kan bgos kalau gitu . Hari2 dpt tgok muke dier yg hot nk mampos, heeesss ;DDDDDD . Kay, I'm waiting for Atikah's reply . I think she's asleep liao . Alermakk ! Nevermind, tmrw morning can continue aye . I got err, new story for you ;DDD . Okay, night readers . My life is boring, I know . Just shut the fuck up .

Erfan said, " Walao , u don't have any new stories to share with me ah ? Since u break up ah, your life like lifeless and boring sia. "

Fuck you, Erfan ! Hahah, nvm, you're still my best friend & my love guru . Happy 14th Birthday ! ;D
Happy 15th Birthday, Musq ! ;D

Love is almost like suicide.
You give so much to that special someone that you sometimes end up killing yourself inside.

A true and sincere heart will move the other party .

2010-01-22T20:21:00.000+08:00

1. Are u single ? -Yes .

2. Are u happy ? -Guess so.

3. Are u bored ? -Not so . I'm otp with Erfan .

4. Are u fair ? - Not so .

5. Are u an Italian ? -I wish so .

6. Are u intelligent ? -Err, not so .

7. Are u honest ? -Yes .

8. Are u nice ? -If u treat me nice, then, yes ;D .

9. Are u an Irish ? -Nope .

10 facts about you .

1. Full name - Siti Naqiah Bte Mansor

2. Nickname - Naq/NaqiaHaha/NaqiahTorres

3. Birth place - East Shore Hospital .

4. Hair colour - Dark brown/black .

5. Natural hairstyle - Err, not so straight and no so curly .

6. Eye colour - Dark brown (?) Black (?)

7. Date of birth- 15 April 1996

8. Mood- Good .

9. Favourite colour(s) - Red, Hot pink, Blue, White & Black .

10. One place u like to visit - Idk .

10 questions about ur love life .

1. Have u ever been in love ? - Yup2 .

2. Do u believe in love at first sight ? -Err, not so.

3. Do u currently have a crush ? - Nope .

4. Have u ever been hurt emotionally ? - Yes .

5. Have u ever broken someone's heart ? -Yes .

6. Have u had ur heart broken ? -Yes .

7. Have u ever liked someone but never told them ? -Yes .

8. Are u afraid of commitment ? -Not so .

9. Who was the last person u hug ? -Amelia .

10. Who was the last person u said I love you to ? -Err, ex-bf ?

10 this and that .

1. Love of lust ? -Love .

2. Hard liquor or beer ? - Beer .

3. Cat or dog ? -None .

4. A few best friends or regular friends ? -Bestfriends .

5. Creamy or crunchy ? - Crunchy .

6. Pencil or Pen ? - Pen .

7. Wild night out or romantic night in ? -Wild night .

8. Money or happiness ? -Happiness .

9. Night or day ? -Night .

10. IM or phone ? -Phone .

10 Have u ever .

1. Been caught sneaking out ? -Nope .

2. Seen a polar bear ? - Yes, zoo .

3. Done something u regretted ? -Yes .

4. Bungee jump ? - NO .

5. Eaten food that fell on the floor ? - No.

6. Finished entire jaw breaker ? -Huh ?

7. Been caught naked ? -No .

8. Wanted an ex gf/bf back ? - Err, yes ?

9. Cried cause u lost a pet ? -Nope .

10. Wanted to dissapear ? -Sometimes .

10 preferences in a partner .

1. Smile or eyes ? -Both .

2. Light or dark ? -Okay2 .

3. Hugs or kisses ? -Both .

4. Shorter or taller ? -Taller

5. Intelligent or attraction ? -Attraction .

6. Topman or Zara ? -Hees . Both lor ;]]

7. Funny or serious ? -Funny

8. Older or younger ? Older.

9. Outgoing or quiet ? - Outgoing

10. Sweet or bad ? - Sweet .

10 Have u .

1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd ? -Yes .

2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than 1hr ? -Yes .

3. Ever walk on hands ? -When I was a baby, yes .

4. Ever been to a rock concert ? -Nope .

5. Ever been in a cheerleading team ? -Eee, no .

6. Ever been in a dance team ? -Err, yes .

7. Ever been in a sport team ? -Yes

8. Ever been in a drama play/production ? -Nope .

9. Ever owned a BMW/Mercedez Benz/Escalade/Hummer/Bentley ? -Nope and don't wish to.

10. Ever been in a rap video ? -Npe .

10 Lasts ;

1. Last phone call u made ? -Erfan .

2. Last person u hugged ? -Amelia

3. Last person u hang out with ? -Not sure .

4. Last time u worked ? -Never .

5. Last person u talked to ? -Erfan .

6. Last person u IM'D ? -None.

7. Last person u texted ? - Atikah .

8. Last person u went to a movie with ? -Hazirah .

9. Last person/thing u missed ? -Nothing ?

10. Last website u visited ? Alot .

The struggles make you stronger, and the changes make you wise . And the happiness has its own way of taking its sweet time .

2010-01-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm updating my blog . I won't be updating my blog that often now . Kay, I don't know what to say right now. Errr , I just woke up from my urmm, 4hrs nap . Don't know how to sleep back . Aper sia aku mepek ?

Photos with Hydir Idris & Sarah Aqilah was uploaded at facebook already . yeay ! Thanks Kak Ima ;] . But, gmbr Seoul Garden blom upload lagy . I'm waiting .....

I still have coursework to do, haiya . Aku tk phm langsung mcm mane nk buat . Tkper, pelan2 kayuh uhs ehk . There'll be a maths test tmrw, damn it . And I've not studied for it . Bravo ehk ? Biase, kate NaqiahTorres mahh .

Ah, talking abt Torres, hopefully he'll not quit anfield . Haiya Liverpool, I think uhs, u should dream on about winning this season . Fuck u, Rafael ! You're the one who should be fired a fucking long time ago . 8-) . Kay, bye .

Wyldan said, " He broke you without even trying . He invaded your heart without a care . He wedged himself in your hidden thoughts , and cares with a flippant smile and cocky attitude . He never knew, he couldn't have cared less . And as a perfect person to make u come alive, he was the perfect person to break u down ."

And, yes, I agreed . He used to be, once.

This past year,
I've learned that goodbyes will always hurt,
Pictures never replace being there,
and memories, good or bad will
bring tears to your eyes,
and words will never be able
to replace the feelings.

A short time is a long time when your mind just wont let go.

2010-01-11T19:27:00.000+08:00

Okay, I shall keep this post a short one . Cause I'm lazy to type & my homeworks are not done, haiya ! Currently facebook-ing, listening to musics and editing pics . Ader satu lelaki nie pat facebook, eeeee . Dah luhs tk handsome, ader hati nk knal2 ngan aku . EEEEEEEEE ! Jln dah, hahak ! And he's horny, eeewww . Se-horny-horny nyer ex aku, tk luhs sehorny kau, tau tk . Aiyo . And, aku tipu kau, hahak ! Ader hp, ckp tkde hp . Tk attach, ckp attach, huahua . Mls luhs nk knal2 ngan org , buang mase aku jer . Kwn2 yg aku ader, dah ckop utk disimpan ;] And please ehk, tkyah nk panggil aku 'syg'2 nie sume . I'm sick of it, gundu !

"Everything happens for a reason.Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity. All occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small test, if they be events, illness or relationships, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere."

There are some people in life that make you laugh a little louder, smile a little bigger, and just live a little better.

2010-01-07T22:40:00.001+08:00

Okay, it's been so long since I updated my blog . It's dead, hahs . Okay, aku ngah update nie . Bersyukur luhs sikit, aiyo .
Kay, school sucks abit . Get that old Yuen for EL and that same fucking Fuckziah as Form Teacher & History . haiya. Suey nyer . Dah gitu tkper tau . Baru 2nd day of school, dah ader hwk dri tuu Yuen, kanina ! And today, the 4th day of school, dah ader problems . tsktsk . From bad to worse, hahs .
Kay luhs, I think, that's all for now . Sec 1s are minah(s) sia . eeeeeeee . Tkper, baru juniors . ;] . Okay, bye .

Tag replies :
Winson : Hey ! Happy new year to you too ;] Kao bei !
Khai : Of course I remembered you ;]
Aliyah : Yelah2 . Wadever .
Atikah : It's not private anymore kan ? hahahak !
Guest : Errr, mcm gitu uhs . Susah nk explain . Sorry .

Life- 4 simple letters, yet so complicated

Love- 4 simple letters, yet so confusing
Destiny- 7 simple letters, yet so unpredictable
Feelings- 8 simple letters, yet so unexplainable
Words- 5 simple letters, yet there aren't enough to express
Regrets- 6 simple letters, yet they never seem to disappear
Silence- 7 simple letters, yet it can be so loud
Time- 4 simple letters, yet there is never enough
Sadness- 7 simple letters, yet it lingers everywhere
Pain- 4 simple letters, yet it takes so long to heal
Mistakes- 8 simple letters, yet they can never be erased
Beauty- 6 simple letters, yet so hard to see

Oh, it's been two months . Thanks for you love & time . I appreciate it very much .

Your imperfections are what makes you beautiful.

2009-12-30T00:42:00.000+08:00

Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.

A question I've been waiting to ask .

10 Things I've Learned About Life :

1. Happy endings are for fairy tales.
2. Love is a word that gets thrown around and can cause great pain.
3. Promises are meant to be broken.
4. People change.
5. Hopes and dreams are just wishful thinking.
6. You may find the person of your dreams but chances are they've already found theirs.
7. Never listen to anyone.
8. People kill people, not guns.
9. Life is never fair.
10. After all the bullshit is over, you die.

You can be in love & you can be in a relationship, but they're not always the same thing.

2009-12-28T01:59:00.000+08:00

Kay, just a quick update alright ? hahs . Urmm, slept over at uncle's house for 2 nights :] . Slept very very late . The first night, slept at 7am . Second night, 5am :O . huahuahua . Aper nk uat, dah biase luhs katekan . We karaoke and stuffs . Mls nk elaborate uhs . Haiya !

Went back home on the 26th .

Okay, today went to Bugis with Shafika ;]] Met her downstairs at 3pm, train-ed to Bugis and went back home around 6+pm :] . And she said, " Ahh, sekarang bru nk ajak aku keluar ehk . Kalau tk, asyik Aliyah, Rais . Aliyah, Rais . " HAHAHAK ! Sorry uhs girl !

Around 8+pm, went to Rasa 21 with dad & mum . Both younger siblings at Pasir Ris, Nadee's house . Elder brother went to Cage with cuzins ;] . So, I decided to asked Wyldan to tag along ;] . And, he did . yeay ! hahs . Ate and then went to Shop N Save at Tmart . Bought watermelon and Teen magazine :] . Tralalala, went home lor .

Okay, bye . Tkde pape lagy nk ckp . huahuahua . Kay, bye !

25.12.09 - Happy 17th Birthday Acit ! ;]

28.12.09 - Happy 14th Birthday Shafika ! ;]

That’s the thing about letting old lovers go.
You don’t stop loving some of them.
There are a couple you love no less than you ever did.
You’re not gonna try and make it work again,
but if they needed you, you’d drop everything.

True love is not seen with the eyes. But felt with the heart.

2009-12-22T23:27:00.001+08:00

Okay, this is my 230 post ;DD . This blog is about 1 year old . So, today wake up quite early . Was awaken by my alarm clock, hahs . Woke up at 9am , bathe and siap siap . Met Aliyah and make our way to Afghan . Waited for Yanti and Musq . Musq was fucking late ! 1hr and 19mins ! My goodness . So, after getting our books, bus-ed home . Reach home, took my bag and off to S11 with Aliyah and met Yanti . Walked around the 3malls in Tampines ; Tampines 1, Tampines Mall & Century Square :] Went to Uniqlo, hoping to meet Nadiah cuzin, but she's not working today, pfft . So, went to Esprit . The tees and jackets were very nice . Lawar seyy . Price dier pon lawa, haha . Then, went to Esprit 2nd floor . Saw Kak Yani and Esprit's Salon . Nah, she's working there . So, salam her and chat for awhile . hahs . She said that if I want to buy anything from Esprit, tell her, so she can give me a discount . WEEEEEEEEEEE ;DDD .

At Tmall, went in Mango . 50% SALES !! Kay . Bought two tees the other day, so, save up ! But uhs, the normal mango tee tkde seyy, siakk ! Tkper, they are still selling the sweater ;DD .Then we went to Times ! Spent quite some time there as all the shopping things are bought ;] . Me and Yanti was so excited about the chocolate recipe books & the New Moon filiming book . Embry was fucking hot ~ !! But, Demetri is even hotter ~ ! ;DDDDDDDDDDD . *wink . Okay, then headed home . And yeah, bought Teenage, January 2010 edition ;]]

Yesterday did the ironing . Phew ! Banyak giler babi, hahs . And when I wanted to iron my Mango tee, I asked my sister to so called 'try' the tee . And like surprisingly, she can fit it :O :O . That was not good . Nnti aku dah tkleh pki, semue dier amek . No way, mann ! Nk, byr ! huahuahua :P . I still wonder, how she can fit it . A 10 year old kid fits a 13 year old tee . Hmmm . Kay, nevermind .

Kay, nk twilight marathon . Bye & night readers ;D

And ader satu lelaki nie pat facebook, irritating giler babi to the max ! Tibe2 tnyr, nk aper mepek friendship ngan dier . Ehk hello ! Kalau kau add aku, nmpk sah jdi kwn kan . pfft . Kalau nk add kan " Add As Friend " . Simple English pon tk tau bace per sia ?! Pale buto luhs kau . G mampos, aku tk akn lyn kau .And stop it sia ngan kau nyer ' How are u ? ' . ~!@#$%^&

"Some things don’t last forever, but some things do.

Like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory you can take out

&& unfold in your darkest times.

Pressing down on the corners & peering in close.

Hoping you still recognize the person you see there."

Nothing was perfect but everything was real.

2009-12-20T22:30:00.001+08:00

So, yesterday BBQ was canceled cause it's raining cats & dogs, haha . The birthday party was held at my house ;] . Slept at around 4+am, and woke up at 6.40am :O . Was awaken by anak sedare aku . So, replied Adam's msg . But he's asleep, haha . So, around 8+am, bathe and around 9+am, went to Mac with Fika ;] Went back home, slept for awhile and then helped mum with some things and off I went to meet Adam at Tmart . Make our way to inter and meet the rest of FDS members . After that went to NTUC, bought the stuffs and all . Then, went our separate ways .Went around Tmall with Adam . We went to Mango . WEEEEEEE ! huahuahua . 50% Sale oii ~ !! Aper lagy, grab uhs . Bought one long sleeve tee and one short sleeve tee . Both in dark pink . Something like dat uhs . :]] And now, I'm broke ! $34 spent liao . huahuahua . Mak blom dpt gaji pulak, haiya . Then blahblahblah, went back home . Aku ajak Adam mkn pat rmh aku, step malu pulak tuu anak . hahha . Beh at last , regret ! hahahak ! Rugi kan ? Mcm Hidir ckp, " Rezeki jgn di tolak . " haha . Slept quite early . Around 1am dah tido . Adam g jb per , tkde org laen nk msg , hahs . Okay, dah cukop uhs nie aku blog . Nk g buat bende laen ? Maen game ke aper . Bye luhs , aiyo .

"Sometimes they take people and they don’t say why.

Sometimes people leave and they never get to say goodbye.

Sometimes there are no second chances to say I love you.

Sometimes there are no next times.

Sometimes you lose someone and you feel like your heart has followed them to Heaven.

& sometimes there is just nothing you can do to make the tears stop.

But, fuck love .

Fuck you . "

More than just friends ?

2009-12-18T22:18:00.001+08:00

So, yesterday slept at 8.30am :O . hees . Tkleh tido seyy . End up, lpas off computer, otp ngan sedare side bpk aku :P . hahak . Conference uhs smpi kul 5.10am :O ;DD . Smpi luhs bpk aku dah alik, kiter maseh otp . Dah gitu tkper, bpk aku pon blh so called 'join' kiter bobal . hahahak . And all his suggestions is nonsense , haha . Ended up, aku ngan bpk aku g ketawa2 tkleh stop . haha . So, at around 5am, dad say, " Dah, ltak telepon . Nnti mak kau alik, dier membebel bru tau . Bsok org nk dtg . " And I say, " Nnti lah . " So, after hanging up, went in my room , listened to ipod nano and messaged Adam .

Woke up at 3pm :O . hahs . Before that, mum wake me up, asked me to tag along to Tmart. Punyer luh mls nk bgn . End up, aku sorang pat rmh, haha . So, bgn jer, charge hp beh check check, adek aku yg g kedai tdi dah alik . Aku bru bgn, dier dah alik . haha .
Abg dpt 14 points for N Level . Dier mintak aku belikan dier bju :O . Dah gitu tkper, dier bgy choice lagy . Either nk bgy dier duit or belikan bju, wth . hahs . Beh bile bilang dier brg2 yg aku nk beli, dier kate, " Zara utk aku ah . " Ader jer yg nk menyelit dlm shopping list aku , hah . -.-' . Adam dpt 17 points, so, still dpt msok Sec 5 uhs . Dinie's results was the most shocking one . 6 points ! wtf, hahs . And he's the top three in Greenview Sec, wow ! Congrats yeah dude . ;]] Kay, bye ! Nk maen The Sims ;] . Bsok ader BBQ ! lalalallalalalalalala . Mls nk g ! cbcbcbcbcb .

" Love is like falling down .

In the end, you're left hurt & scarred .

With a lot of memory of it forever.

But ...

Fuck love .

Fuck you . "

All I wanted .

2009-12-18T02:43:00.001+08:00

Kay, time checked : 2.43am and I'm not asleep yet . Dad's out ! yeay yeay ! hahah . Currently, blogging and messaging Adam . Just finished playing The Sims ;] Tmrw maybe going to Fika cuzin's house . For what, don't ask . Nmpk sah lepak pat rmh dier . haha . Dah lamer tk jumpe per . Bsok, cuzin side mak aku dtg . Punyer luhs , -______________- toot . cbcbcbcb . Pffffffttttttt . haha , talking abt pfft . Adam just asked me, " Btw, aper tuu pfft ? haha ! " -.- . haiya , tuu anak . huahuahua . Kay, bye . Nk off computer, sambung msg n dgr lagu . Night readers ! ;]]

" If only life had a replay and undo button ,

things would have been better between you and me .

But ...

Fuck love,

Fuck you . "

If you can't get someone out of your head, then maybe they're meant to be there .

2009-12-16T19:14:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm updating . Ehk, I talk in malay, can ? Lazy uhs to talk in English . Or maybe I'll be typing in a rojak language . Malay and English mix ;] Kay, yesterday sleep very late . Kul 11+pm, tgok cite '16 & Pregnant' then biler advertisement, tgok citer cine pulak . Then dgr MJ12 skjap . Beh biler part musics, tukar citer masak2 . Yumyum . Sdp seyy drg msk . Kalau uat kan utk aku tkper jgak . While watching tv, messaged Adam , hahs. Then, around 1+am, tgok cite hantu ngan dad . Seram siakk . Terkejut aku, ader org gantung diri . wtf . haha . Citer tuu habes kul 3+am . Dad msok tido, i watched tv, cite masak2 all the way ;] Gerek seyy . Around kul 5+am, msk Magee, kelaparan . haha . Then around kul 6+am, msok bilik, bace buku jap, msg adam . smpi luhs mak aku alik keje . aper lagy, dier membebel luhs, duh-uh . tkyah ckp, standard . beh dah gitu, tunggu si adam reply lmbt sgt, smpi aku tertido . huahuahua . Bgn kul 2+pm :O . hehehe .

Woah, first time aku msg adam smpi gitu lamer, huahuahua . We shared some 'secrets' . He asked abt the standard Qs, ppl asked me . maybe it had happened for quite some time that i didn't cried while I told him everything :] That's a good sign :]

Currently I'm blogging, msging Adam (haha) , plurk-ing and listening to musics at ipod nano :]

Kay, dah. nk g maen The Sims . WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ;DDDDD . Dah lamer oii tk maen tuu game . hehe . This sat ader BBQ . Haiya, mls nyer nk g. Family maybe overnight . But I don't think I will. due to some things . :s . Kay, bye .
" Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back .
But . .
Fuck love,
Fuck you ."

If you haven't cried, your eyes can't be beautiful .

2009-12-14T01:14:00.000+08:00

Coach ;

Poppy signature swingpack - $118

Poppy tartan large wristlet - $98.00

Madison op art sateen mini skinny - $38.00

Small ball chain heart necklace - $128.00

Patchwork bangle - $78.00

Bebe ;

3/4 Sleeve Scoop neck Tee - $44.00

Sparkle Logo V Neck Top - $49.00

Las Vegas tee - $99 .
Armani Exchange ;

Glitter Logo T-shirt - $38.00

Mango;

Red tee - $19

Zara ;

Zara tee - $40
Total : $749 :O .
Sesiape yg baik hati dan kaye ? Belikan aku brg2 pat ats tuu . hahs . haiyayayayya ! I want all the clothes and wallets . pffft . Yg ader full detail tuu, aku check pat wesite sendiri , Yg mcm simple simple, tee tee tuu semue, phm2 jer luhs. Survey sendiri pat kedai dier :X . hahahak . If I get to shop all these clothes and stuffs, I'll shop at Orchard . Cause most of the outlets is there . Senang sikit, kankan ? hahs . Kalau dpt beli, aku nk ajak Kak Ina , kakak sedare aku yg teramat aku syg . muahahaha ! Enta luhs ehk, mcm gerek gitu shopping ngan dier . Maklom lah, dier kan ader mental breakdown sikit . hahak . And yeah, cpat cpat upload gmbr2 pat seoul garden . Dah luhs lmbt upload, charge pulak tuu . Kalau murah tkper, mahal nk mampos . $5 per picture ?! Mak datok ! Kalau 3 gmbr, blh aku beli burger bru pat Mac . Meal lagy uhs . Kay, time checked : 1.03am . Nk g tgok Liverpool against Arsenal ;DD . Liverpool 1 Arsenal 0, half time . Hopefully Liverpool will win tonight :] Hidir's currenly at my house . Biase, Arsenal nyer supporter . Actually kan, dier ngah tido pat sofa . hahah . Kay, bye . Fuck ! Liverpool 1 Arsenal 1 . pfft ! Torres, do ur job, baby !

When I was just about to give up, I remembered why I held on for so long.

2009-12-13T16:11:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm updating my blog :D . Let's re-cap what happened the past few days .

7th December :

Met fav aunt at Tampines MRT Station . Train-ed to City Hall and make our way to Marina Square Seoul Garden :] . Iffah was hungry already at that point of time . hahs . Searched for the outlet for quite some time . haha . selenge kan ? hahahak . So, finally , we found it . We ate for about an hour ? Then make our way to Esplanade to cut the cake :] After eating the chocolate cake, walked around Marina Square and headed to fav aunt's house. Reached her house, I took off my contact lens and went to sleep . At around 6+pm, was awaken by mum's call -.- . pffft . Ader jer yg kacau . Then around 9+pm, woke up . Kak Ima was home so, talked to her . We laughed when I told her what happened that afternoon . Then around 9+pm also, went to Pasir Ris, Kak Yani's house . Then me and younger brother was supposed to go back home ;] . But, uncle said he want to go to Changi , tgok airplanes , -.- . Lame ehk pakcik aku ? Mcm bdk kecik pulak dier . hahahak ! Wei, but dier baek okay. Ilovehim :] . Biase, pakcik aku tuu, kalau keluar, tkleh g satu tempat, kene merayap . hahs . So, after Changi, uncle drove along this deserted road . Seriously, there's no cars . Then out of a sudden, we're at East Coast ! Wow, cool ehk ? haha . Then we urmm 'walked' around Orchard . Dudok dlm kereta jer, tgok lampu . haha . And, home sweet home :]

8th December :

Met Hazirah at Tampines MRT Station . Train-ed to Plaza Singapura . Purchased our tickets ;] . Watched New Moon , weeeeeeeeeeee ;DDD . Like, finally sia . I thought I'll not be watching it cause I planned it with ex-bf, to watch it together . But, God doesn't allowed it . So, yeah . HE have a good reason why good things is not for long ;] . We reached around 1.30pm, but we watched the 2.50pm show, wtf . hahs, hazirah uhs nie . So,we walked around . Then suddenly, got this guy, haha . I was about to turned to the escalator when he suddenly approached me and asked, " Boleh jadi kawan ? " I was like, " Errrr. " And I shook my head and walked away . hahah . Then me and Hazirah walked very fast cause that guy is behind us . haha . Then, we watched New Moon . It's a blast, mann ! I give 5/5 ! HAHAHA . Then we had our dinner at Pizzahut ;] After that, train-ed to Ochard . Waited for Hazirah's dad and we walked around Orchard . I wanted to go to Ochard Central, but, most of the shops is closed cause it's weekdays -.- . Then, home sweet home :]

9th December :

Went to Giant with NCC Seniors and cadets ;DD . Fun seyy . Went out at around 11+am, and reached home around 7+pm . Punyer lamer . Actually, I'm so lazy to elaborate . We had our luch at Open Plaza . We ate Long John Silver . Then make our way to GIANT :] . Then while waiting for Dina and others, saw Kak Yani . So, talked to her for awhile :] . Kay, dah .

10th December :

The moment everyone is waiting for . hahs . NCC BBQ ;DD . Was supposed to meet Dina, Hilman , Aliyah and Adam at Dina's grandfather's house at 10.30am, but ended up the house keys went missing . So, wasted about 30mins searching for it . Finally, I'm out by 11am ! haha . But as usual, Adam is the one who's late . standard . byk dier nyer otw . otw, tpi sempat top-up lagi . hahs . So, we cab-ed to E.C.P . Then, waited for the others to come :] . And at 2.50pm, rent a bicycle for 2hrs. Lamer ehk ? Cause 1hr rent, 1hr free ;D . blahblahblah . Mls nk elaborate . Pictures is at facebook . But not my profile ehk . It's at Yanti's , Musq's , Aliyah's , Insyirah's & Shyraa's profile :] . hees .

11 December :

Nothing happened !

12 & 13 December :

-Ader jemputan .

- Ader family day pat E.CP lagy . pfft .

- Boring giler babi . sumpah .

- Skrg pat rmh ex aku . bye . nk g tgok New Moon .

Do what you want . It's your life, your decision . But remember, there's a weak one & a strong one. CHOOSE who you want to be .

2009-12-06T16:09:00.000+08:00

It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done .

In a perfect world, ex-boyfriends would transfer schools and only reappear to confess tearfully how much they miss you - and by then, you'd have moved on to dating guys who are hotter than Joe Jonas. But in the real world, the pain of a break-up can leave you feeling broken. It's like one minute, you're texting, kissing and loving this person - and the next, you're crying into your pillow, praying he'll call, and wondering if you're always going to feel so totally, or completely alone.

They say, "No man is worth your tears."
True but i bet no one follows to that rule. girls can't help but to weep everytime regardless of being happy, sad or angry. by crying out loud, it helps to release the pain and sorrow drowning in. at times there is no point in shedding tears because those selfless blokes don't deserve our tears. here we are suffering from heartaches, there they are enjoying their lives away. like wasting your text msgs yet they don't bother to reply or get back to you. having a fight in one day but ignores to solve it the next day. so why?
It is definitely not an easy task to ignore your love because you're so used to grabbing the phone and text him right away. i think it's time to rest on my laurel and ignore. i'm getting used to it already. in fact, my heart's at ease. girls try so hard but guys refuse to appreciate and acknowledge our good deeds. i'm tired of 'chasing cars' you know. even if my day gets ruined by our tiff, i look forward to the day after hoping for a better tomorrow for me. i'm still waiting for it. i'll just wait."

The fate of love is that it always seems too much or too little .

2009-12-06T15:46:00.000+08:00

I'm fucking bored right now . Oh ya, I'm not at my house . I'm at Woodlands :] . So, if u need anything, just text or call my phone aites :) Mum and aunt is sleeping -.- . They woke up i don't know what time, bathe, watch tv and off to sleep again . pffft . Mum nowadays . tsk tsk . hahak . I'm currently waiting for Izz Sachok to come . haiya . Punyer luhs lmbt . haiya .

Today woke up at around 10+am . Was awaken by Izz Sachok's message . Stupid, uat kacau jer . Woke up, replied him and went to the living room and sleep again till 12.45pm . ahaha . I want to go to 7-11, but no one to accompany me . pffft . bored sia .

When I was eating my lunch, fav aunt messaged me and I called her . Discuss everything about tomorrow , time and stuffs . Gonna be very busy these days . And hopefully, siblings and dad has been doing the chores . At least, it'll lessen my things to do list . ;] . I think, I'll stop blogging from now on . Will update at the end of this week .

" Make sure god has his good reasons why good things come to an end. So that better things can fall into place. That was the last time. so long.. "

Rembering me, discover and see .

2009-12-06T03:40:00.000+08:00

Kay, I'm back from Malaysia ! xD . Had a fun time at Malaysia .Went to uncle's house at around 3+pm, waited for everyone to come, and we left the house . Before going to uncle's house, went to withdraw some cash and bought my contact lens ;D .Reach Malaysia around 5+pm :O . Late, I know . Cause it's jammed . pfftt. Went to i don't know who's house . Jemputan luhs katekan . Then after that, around 6.45pm, I asked uncle to bring us to Jusco cause there's Mango outlet there . hees :/ . When we're on our way to Jusco, stopped at Pandan City for awhile . Uncle and aunties bought DVDs .Whereas me and Sara bought Bubble Tea at ' Each A Cup' . After that, continue our journey to Jusco ;D . Reached Jusco, parked the car and went in the shopping complex . When the escalator went up, the very first outlet I saw was, ' MANGO ' ! Weee ;D . Apelagi, tros masok tuu kedai . Went to survey the tees there . Told mum I want this particular tee . RM45 jer, means around $20+ . Normal price mahh. Skali, mak tertinggal wallet pat dlm kereta. Haiyaya . So, after I have decided which colour I want to buy, we waited for uncle to finish his prayers and went back to the car and take the wallet -.- . Bought the Mango tee , white in colour ;D . Kalau tk, nk beli long sleeves nyer seyy . Skali, tk accept Singapore dollars pulak . Haiya . So, we proceed to the supermarket and bought stuffs . When we're on our way there, saw Guess outlet . I catch a glimpse of a long sleeve tee . Nice, but I'm lazy to go in and survey .. hahs . Never mind, when mum gets her pay next month, I'll drag her to Jusco again . hahahak .

After shopping at Jusco, uncle bring us to don't know where to eat . Luckily, there's no cats . Cause before we proceed to that place, I said already, " Naqiah tknk g tempat yg ader kucing ehk. " I'm cerewet when dining out, so ? Got problem ? haha, lucky he take my words seriously ;] We ate at i don't know where. And I swear, I hate the kind of service they gave us . We waited for about 45mins ? Then our food come . Pffft . But in between the waiting, it was fun uhs . I cracked a lot of lame jokes about the chef . hahak . And when the staffs came, I say, " Dah dah, shhh . Org dier dtg . " hahak, after eating, went back to Singapore lor .

When we were at pandan mum saw New Moon dvd is out . Then she say, " Ehk, kak, nie cite yg kau nk tgok . " I say, " Ah ah . Alah, nie semue pirated luhs . Citer bru keluar, dah kelaur pat dvd . Merepek . " Then mm say " Okay . I buy, u don't watch . I on the movie, u go inside ur room. " Then I say, " Okay lor . "

hahs . Ended up, she didn't buy it cause even the shop owner says, it's not really original -.-. fuck you .

Hmm, what more should I blog ? Haiya, no idea lehh . I'm super bored right now .

Yesterday on the phone with Mira cuzin from 12.45am till 5.30am :O :] . Fun siakk, mcm mcm yg kiter bobal . I told her some of my thoughts . But when I told her, all the questions came back to me . haiya . It's fucking hard yknow . && it's bloody hard to lose you, you know. *sigh . If I have this power like Siobhan . Wonder who she is ? tkyah tau .nk tau, g bace buku breaking dawn sendiri . If I have that special vampire gift from Siobhan, things will not turned out this way . I hate it . Why am I still living in past ? Omg . move on.move on.move on. Around 2+am, Fika joined us ;]

Mira : Kay, naqiah, kau nk kahwin age bape ?

Me : Enta luhs . Lpas uni and dpt stable job uhs siol . Fika ?

Fika : Aku ehk ? Hmmm . 23 uhs . tgok uhs . ( I've forgotten uhs )

***
Then, we discussed who'll be our future husbands based on our ex(s) or crush . hahahhak . Mepek sia, sumpah . We talked about what will our berkat be, how much is the hantaran , bape byk dulang nk, honeymoon countries, what's our dulang things, the catering, where it'll be held, total expenditure . And after marriage, how many maids we want, what type of house we want, the cars we want to own, how many rooms will there be in our house, how many kids we want , what will their name be . Some more what uhs ? I think that's all uhs .

After that, me and Mira talked about other stuffs and she bring up the topic about Syukri .Siakk . I don't know he'll change to that extreme . wow ! Truly grown up huh, syukri ? Not bad . I didn't expect him to change out of a sudden . In 3 months, u changed like fucking , wow ! *speechless . Fika hang up at around 4.30am . Whereas me and Mira hang up at around 5.30am . Went to bed at around 5.45am ;]

Kay, I want to sleep already, it's 3.30am liao . haiyo .Night readers ;]

" It's either you stay or you leave . I think, it's better of you leave . "

If someone you love hurts you cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it.

2009-12-04T19:09:00.000+08:00

Okay, my second post for today . I'm having a headache . fuck . Haiya . Maybe, it's because I haven't eaten . Wait, I ate waffles already . Haiya . Currently chatting with Fika cuzin at facebook & listening to musics .
Fika : Mira ngan Acap dah break . Dah tau blom ?
Me : Dah dah . Aku dah bce tag kau . Saper mintak ? Acap ehk ?
Fika : Yupyup . Biase arh .
Me : Sial siakk . Aper reason dier ?
Fika : Buzzzyyyy ! sial kan ?
Me : Siakk ! Mepek . perangai, samer sia ngan wan .
Fika : tk phm siakk aku ngan dorang .
Me : HAHAHAK .
Me : Wei . cb, dah tgok new moon ?
Fika : Dah .
Me : Siakk . Dgn ?
Fika : Ader uhs .
Me : Kay, g mampos.
And it goes on and on .
I don't know what's with dad the past few days . On the 1st December, dad gave me back my Sim card which was unexpected . haiya . And when I insert my sim card, I received a msg from I don't know who . Such an idiot sia him . pfft . And on the 2nd or 1st also, dad asked me, " Buku yg kau nk bape $$ ? " Then I was like, " Urmm . $20 . Bpk nk belikan ? " He replied me, " Tgok luh dulu . Mid month luh . " Then I say, " Okay ! Set ! " hahas . And Hidir has been sleeping over my house for 3 days 2 nights . haha .
And Wyldan, since when u know I have a blog ? :@ . Nevermind . I don't know what colour I should be wearing tmrw . haiya . Kay, bye .

And in the end it is not the years in your life that count, It’s the life in your years.

2009-12-04T14:28:00.002+08:00

Ten Things I Want to Say to Ten Different People (but don't say their name) :

1. He's coming back . A few more hours ;]

2.U don't understand, girl . It's not easy . He need some time .

3. Fuck you, bitch !

4.You broke a promise, u idiot !

5. Chubby cheeks, ugh .

6. I miss you . But we'll be meet up on the 7th . haha .

7. That was unexpected . Thanks yeah ;]

8. I want a freaking reason !

9. Pretty eyes .

10. Chill down .

Nine things about myself :

1. I love Torres .

2. I am stubborn.

3. I love honeydew.

4. I talk craps a lot .

5. I am crazy .

6. I keep secrets :P .

7.I play soccer .

8. I hate it when I'm asked to do things I don't like to do .

9. I hate guys who have big ego .

Eight ways to win my heart :

1. Not perfect .

2. A face that I wont get sick of.

3. Accept me the way I am .

4. Being able to tolerate all my nonsense and craps xD

5. Not so much of a looking ;]

6. Able to make me laugh a lot.

7. No egos .

8. Understand me .

Seven things that cross my mind a lot :

1.Reason (s)

2. When will I be rich ?

3. Why can't time pass by really fast ?

4. And tomorrow, and tomorrow and tomorrow.

5. I want it back ! :@

6. Stop nagging, I get it.

7. Gone !

Six things I do before I fall asleep :

1. Msg someone .

2. Disturb my little sister.

3. Wash my face.

4. Listening to musics .

5. Brush my teeth.

6. Apply all the needed creams and lotions.

Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) :

(there’s more, but this calls for 5 only)

1. Family.

2. Girlfriends.

3. Oh, someone .

4. Friends.

5. Family.

Four things youre wearing right now :

1.T-shirt .

2. 3/4 pants .

3. My face.

4.A bracelet .

Three bands that you listen to often :

1. I don't know .

2. I don't care .

3. I don't give a damn .

Two things you want to do before you die :

1. Get married, settle down, have kids, see them grow up.

2. Travel to Spain .

One confession :

1.My imagination is a thousand times better than a movie ;]

Alright, I'm updating my blog :] There's couple of things I want and need to do ;

1. Get my holiday homeworks done .

2. Watch New Moon . Will be wacthing, yeay !

3. Go to Malaysia . Will be going tmrw, haha .

4. Get over it and done with ;]

Will be going to Malaysia tomorrow . yeay ! Finally, I'm going to Malaysia . Dah lamer tk pegy :/ . Plans for this December :

1. Going to Malaysia on the 5th of December .

2. Going to dine out at Seoul Garden on the 7th of December with fav aunt, Iffah and elder brother . My birthday treat for aunt :]

3. Going to watch New Moon at Plaza Singapura with Hazirah and Aliyah on the 8th . Going to Orchard after that to meet Hazirah's dad . :]

4. Going to GIANT with NCC seniors on the 9th to do some shoppings for BBQ Pit .

Siakk ! 3 days straight, I'll be going out . Haiya . And after all these outings, I'll be broke . Haiya . Just now, went to accompany Aliyah to clinic . After that, went back home, took my wallet and make our way to Prima Deli . Bought chocolate waffles and I ordered fav aunt's cake ;] Paid a deposit of $5 . hahaha . Lucky for me, I have some cash that time . Then went back home lor .

Kak Ina won't be joining us to dine at Seoul Garden :( . Haiya . Blame it on her driving license test uhs :@ .Damn it . Nevermind . What more should I blog ? I'm not going to update my blog like how I did the past few days . Lazy luhs to go online .

Yesterday went to Sheng Siong with mum . I did most of the shopping . haha . Went to mac to have my lunch . Mum have had her breakfast, so, I ate the new burger . I forgot the name of the burger uhs .hahs . Okay luhs, i give 3.5/5 . ;] After eating, I went to Sheng Siong again to buy ice creams and chocolates :] . Then cab-ed home . Okay, I'm blank . Kay, bye . And yeah, I just added some new songs to my playlist . Kay, bye .

“Forgiveness is me giving up my right to hurt you for hurting me.

Cos my mind still wonders,
still question,
still ponder,
but...
fuck love. fuck you. "

The WORST way to miss someone is when you are sitting beside them . Yet, you know, u can't have them .

2009-12-01T22:46:00.001+08:00

Answer all the questions honestly, no lying to avoid stuff.
Starting time:

5:22 pm

Name:

Naqiah

Sisters:

Brothers:

Eye Color:

Black / Brown .

Shoe size:

6 or 7 .

Hair:

Dark brown .

Piercings:

Ears .

Height:

160cm

What are you wearing right now?

Class tee .

Where do you live?

Tampines

Favorite number:
6, 9, 15 . & 28 (?)
Favorite drink:

Ice Lemon Tea .

Favorite month:

April .

Favorite breakfast:

I don't eat breakfast .

* Have You Ever ;

Broken a bone:

Nope.

Been in a police car:

Nope.

Been on a plane:

Yes .

Been in a hot tub:

Nope .

Swam in the ocean:

Nope .

Fallen asleep in school:

Yes . A lot of time .

Cried when someone died?:

No, i think .

Fell off your chair:

Forget .

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:

Nope .

Saved e-mails:

Yes.

Been cheated on:

Nope ?

*What is ;
Your room like?

I don't know .

What is right beside you?

Aliyah .

What is the last thing you ate?

Oreo

*Ever had ;
Chicken pox:

Yups .

Sore throat:

Not sure .

Stitches:

No . Eeew .

Broken nose:
Nope . I'm not like Michael Jackson :]
* Do you;
Believe in love at first sight?

No .

Like picnics?

Yes .

Wear contact lenses or glasses?

Yups .

***
Who was the last person you danced with?

No one .

Who last made you smile?

I don't know .

* Who ;
Did you last yell at?

I'm not sure . One of my younger siblings :]

———-Final Questions————-

What are you listening to right now?

Musics .

What did you do today?

Go Tmart .

Hate someone in your family?

Yups .

Diamond or pearl?

Diamonds .

Are you the oldest?

Nope .

Indoors or out doors?

Out door .

* Today, did you ;
1. talk to someone you like?

Yes .

2. Kiss anyone?

Nope .

3. Get sick?

Nope .

4. Sing?

Nope .

5. Talk to an ex?

Nope .

6. Miss someone?

Yes .

7. Eat?

Yes.

* Last person ;
8. You talked to on the phone?

Aliyah .

9. Made you cry?
Someone .
10. Went to the movies with?

Aliyah :]

11. You went to the mall with?

Aliyah .

* Have You;
19. Been to Mexico?

Nope .

20. Been to USA?

Nope .

* Random .
21. have a crush on someone?

Nope .

22. What books are you reading right now?
No books :/ Only magazine :]
23. Best feeling in the world?
- Being loved by someone . ;]
24. Future kids names?

I don't know .

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?

Nope .

26. What’s under your bed?

Nothing .

27. Favorite sport(s) to watch?

Soccer .

28. Favorite place:

Somewhere under the rainbow .

32. Who do you really hate?

Mdm Fauziah and Nabila .

33. Do you have a job?

Job uhs ? House chores ader uhs .

37. What time is it now?

5.33pm.

" It's not about the looks , the gorgeousness, the hotness and the sexiness . But, it's about how the heart looks inside . "

Sometimes, the pain of breaking up isn't worth the agony of trying not to .

2009-11-30T21:04:00.001+08:00

Today woke up at around 12+ pm . Woke up, watched tv and bathe . After bathing, did some chores and went out to Tampines East CC with Aliyah . After submitting the bursary thingy , walked around 201 . Bought ice-blend and some bread . Then bus-ed to Tmart, Aliyah rent 2 DVDs ; Where Got Ghost and Meet The Spartan . Then walked to my house and we watched Where Got Ghost . Blah blah blah then Aliyah went home at around 6.30pm . Currently I'm plurk-ing, blogging and facebook-ing . And yeah, listening to musics . Younger sister is watching Paranormal Activity with younger brother . Elder brother just came back from KL . yeay ! hahs , i don't know why I'm so happy when he came back . It felt like everyone is here . :]

Oh ya, Winson , enjoy your trip to Thailand, alright . Take good care of yourself , hahs .

Since someone is mad about the spamming at plurk, I think I should stop plurk-ing first and talk to myself at this blogger, pfft . hmmm . I wonder if I should go to Malaysia this Saturday or stay at home and watch MTV . Cause there's about Twilight and New Moon . Weeee ! ;)) Haiya . But if I were to go to Malaysia, I'll miss MTV shows . If I stay at home, I can't visit Angsana's bookstore . confused.confused.confused.

What more should I blog about ? hmmm . * thinking . Oh ya, got 1 comment from i don't know who , commented on my previous post . hahs, bobal mepek . Satu bende pon aku tk phm . Bobal sorang jgak agaknyer org tuu . hahahahahak ! Okay, paranormal activity is like kinda boring , pfft . I haven't had my dinner or lunch . haiya, I'm so lazy to chew something . I asked mum to cook for us sambal udang . And when she cooked , I just don't feel like eating it . pffft . Such a trouble-maker I am . 8-) I don't give a damn . Call me whatever u want . Okay, I think, I better go and eat now before the clock strikes 10pm cause eating after 10pm is not good . But I always eat bread . Nevermind, alas perut :]

" Do you know that u have a very very big ego ? Thank god, it's over . Phew . "

If you can’t save the relationship, at least save your pride.

2009-11-30T00:28:00.002+08:00

Okay, I'm damn bored right now . I want to do a quiz . :]

1.Status of you and the last person you sent a text to.

- Friend .

2.Do you have any plans for saturday ?

- Malaysia, maybe .

3)when was the last time you got flowers?

- Not sure .

4)Has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?

- Nope . Siao .

5)Do you love anyone?

- Yes, a lot .

6) What are you doing right now?

- This quiz , chatting and listening to music .

7)Are you in love?

- Nope .

8)Have you read the book Twilight?

- Yes, countless times .

9)If you had a chance to get back together with your ex, would you?

- Maybe .

10)What are ur opinion about your friends?

- Fun . Loving . Caring . Crazy .

11)What do you like about yourself?

- My craziness ? hahak . I don't know .

12)Do you think someone is talking behind your back?

-I don't give a damn .

13)Do you like it when boys have egos?

- Nope .

14)Do you hate your friends?

- Nope .

15)Do you remember your first crush's name?

- Nope .

16)What are you?

- Human , obviously .

17)Did you kiss anyone today?

- Nope .

18)Are you a mean person?

- Nope .

19)Are you excited for anything?

- Nope .

20)Have you let someone down last week?

- Not sure .

21)Are you close with your siblings?

- Yup .

22)Do you get along with your parents?

- Yes .

23)Are you in a good mood right now?

- Guess so .

24)Who was the last person you spoke on the phone for over an hour?

- Wyldan ?

25)Do you like to make the first move?

-Hmmm . Not sure .

26)Do you hate it when people smoke around you?

- Yes . But I can't do anything about it . Just got to endure the smell -.- .

27)What's something you really want right now, be honest:

- A lot .

28)How long you've ever talked on the phone?

- A few hours .

29)Has anyone ever sang to you?

- hahs. Nope .

30)Do you get emotional easily?

- Nope .

31)Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?

-Yes, Michelle Yew Zi Ling..

32)Is there a person of the opposite sex who means alot to you?

-Yes .

33)Has someone ever made a promise to you and broken it?

- Yes..

34)Do you want someone back in your life?

- Think so .

Another Quiz :]

1. Real name :

- Siti Naqiah Bte Mansor

2. Nickname:

- Naqiahaha/ NaqiahTorres .

3. Star sign :

- Aries

4. Male or female :

- Female.

5. Primary school :

- East Spring Primary School

6. Secondary school :

- Junyuan secondary school .

7. JC/POLY :

- Haven't yet -.-

8. Hair color :

- Dark Brown and some black :D

9. Long or short :

- Not so long

10 . Loud or Quiet :

- Loud .

11. Sweats or Jeans :

- Jeans ?

12. Phone or camera :

- Phone :D

13. Health freak :

- Not really.

14 . Drink or smoke :

- Drink .

15 . Do you have a crush on someone :

- Nope .

16 . Eat or drink :

- Both :D

17 . Piercings :

- 2

18 . Tattoos :

- Nope .

19. Been in an airplane :

- Yes

20 . Been in a relationship :

- Yes

21 . Been in a car accident :

- Nope.

22 . Been in a fist fight :

- Nope .

23. First piercing :

- Ears.

24 . First best friend (s) :

- Syaffana and Amalina. They're the best !

25 . First award :

- Nursery dance performance ( I think)

26 . First Crush :

- Forgot .

27 . First Vacation :

- Forgot . Malaysia, i guess .

28 . Last person you talked to :

- Younger brother .

29 . Last person you texted to :

- Wyldan .

30 . Last person(s) you watched a movie with :

- Ex-bf, Hasan and Aliyah .

32. Last food you ate :

-Rice

33 . Last movie you watched :

- Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs .

34 . Last song you listened to :

- Holla Holla .

35 . Last thing you bought :

- Ice Blend .

36 . Last person you hugged :

- Ex bf .

37 . Food :

- Anything that's edible .

38. Drinks :

- Lemon tea , Ice Milo and many more

39 . Clothing :

- A lot .

40 . Books :

- Twilight Saga, True Singapore Ghost Stories, Geronimo Stilton & The Boy Call 'It' books .

41 . Song :

- Hmm . A lot .

42 . Flower :

- Rose ?

43 . Colors :

- Red, White, Black, Blue and Hot Pink .

44 . Movies :

- A lot .

45 . Phrase :

- A lot .

46 . Subjects :

- 8 subjects , lazy to type .

47 . Kissed in the snow :

- Nope .

48 . Celebrated Halloween :

- Nope .

49. Had your heart broken :

- Yes .

50 . Went over the minutes on your cell phone :

- Nope.

51 . Someone questioned your sexual orientation :

- No .

52 : Came out of the closest :

- hahahak . Yes, when playing Hide & Seek :/ .

53 . Gotten pregnant :

-Nope .

54 . Had an abortion :

- Nope . It's sinful .

55 . Done something you've regretted :

- Think so .

56 . Broke a promise :

- Yes, i think .

57 . Hid a secret :

- Nope .

58 . Pretended to be happy :

- Yes.

59 . Met someone who changed your life :

- Yes :D

60 . Pretended to be sick :

- Nope .

61 .Left the country :

- Yes.

62 . Tried something you normally wouldn't try & liked it :

- Nope .

63 . Cried over the silliest thing :

- Nope .

64 . Ran a mile :

- Nope . But i wish to :]

65 . Went to the beach with your best friend(s) :

- Yes

66 . Stay single the whole year :

-Yes .

67 . Eating :

- Nope

68. Drinking :

- Nope

69. I'm about ton :

- Huh ?

70 . Listening to :

- Can't help but wait .

71 . Plans for tomorrow :

- Heading to Tampines East CC .

72 . Waiting for :

- Hmmm . A few things to happen .

73 . Want kids :

- Married then .

74. Want to get married :

- Hmm . Such a long journey in my life .

75 . Careers in mind :

- Yes

76 . Which is better than Girl / Boy :

- Both ?

76 . Lips or eyes :

- Eyes

77 . Shorter or taller :

- Taller

78 . Romantic or spontaneous :

- Romantic

79 . Nice stomach or nice arms :

- Both

80. Sensitive or loud :

- Loud .

81 . Hook-up or relationship :

- Relationship .

82. Trouble-maker or hesistant :

- Hesitant .

Have you ever ;

83. Lost glasses/ contacts :

- Nope .

84. Ran away from home :

- Nope .

85. Hold a gun or knife for self defense :

- Nope .

86 . Killed somebody :

- Of course not .

87 . Broken someone's heart :

- Yes ?

88 . Been arrested :

- No lah , ass -.-"

89. Cried when someone died :

- Yes.

Do you believe in ;

90. Yourself :

- Sometime

91. Miracles :

- Depends

92 . Love at first sight :

- Nope .

93 . Heaven :

Yes

94 .Santa Claus :

- No

95 . Sex on the first date :

- No

96 . Kiss on the first date :

-Nope .

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now :

- Think so .

98 . Are you seriously happy with where you are in life :
- Hmm . Nope .
99. Ever stead with a guy u ever met ?
-Nope .
100 .What are u waiting for :
- A lot of things .
101. When's the last time you got hurt ?
- Hmm . Quite a while .
102. Do you own a handphone of your own ?
-Yes .
103. Do you still love him ?
- Hmmm . I don't know .
104 . Do you hate him ?
- Nope . And never :]
105. Do you even think about him ?
- Sometimes ?
Tag ten people to do this quiz : Anyone .

“A relationship is like a rose. How long it lasts, no one knows. Love can erase an awful past, love can be yours, you'll see at last. To feel that love, it makes you sigh. To have it leave, you'd rather die. You hope you've found that special rose, cause you love and care for the one you choose. Trust is the glue of life. It's the most essential ingredient in effective communication. It's the foundational principle that holds all relationships."

I'm cuddling back to my bed with so much left unsaid & I can't let you go .

2009-11-29T22:23:00.000+08:00

Okay, yesterday Hari Raya Haji was quite fun . I didn't expect it cause I don't usually clebrate it . hahs . Weird, i know . Left house at around 6+pm . Reached aunt's place at around 7pm . Salam everyone that's in the house . Talked with cousins and aunties . Blah blah blah, fav aunt came . Dad wanna went home at around 10.40pm, but fav uncle said, he'll send me home. yeay ! So, stayed a little longer and waited for Mira to come . Punyer luhs lmbt . She reached at around 11pm . So, talked, took pictures and went to 7-11 at around 12am . Blah blah blah , went home at around 12.20am :] Alright, next post please :]

" People ask why life is sometimes so full of pain. Well, without pain, would we learn how to appreciate happiness? Would people learn from their mistakes? Would people learn how to pick themselves up after they fall? Sometimes pain is the best teacher and through the pain, we learn how to show kindness to others. "

You can fight to make a relationship stronger. But you can't be the only one fighting .

2009-11-27T16:31:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm super bored right now . It's raining, pfft . Will be going out at around 7.30pm or 8pm . Going to Pasir Ris , aunt's house . Don't know go there for what . Either to celebrate her birthday or Hari Raya Haji . -.- . Dad and younger sister went off already . Currently facebook-ing, plurk-ing and listening to blog musics .

Yesterday Adam and his siblings came over . Adam helped my elder brother with his iPod Nano , pfft . Abg bought it for $220 . Hmm, okay luhs tuu . It's green . Eee , tk lawa siakk . At around 10+pm, watched i don't know what movie . Watched till 12+am . Then sleep lor .
Okay, nk kene siap . Nnti abg mengamok kalau siap lmbt, pfft . I'm so lazy to wear kebaye . Can I wear casual ? Okay, bye .
" If you desire love in your life, cultivate it in yourself, in your own dreams and desires, in the mark you want to make during your brief span here, in the lessons learned, in the smiles as much as the scars. fill yourself up with love, rather than waiting for someone to do it for you.”

Why does fate give you the guy you always wanted, only to find out later that he was never really yours in the first place, and he never will be.

2009-11-26T11:42:00.000+08:00

Earlier post was supposed to be publish yesterday, Wednesday, 25 November . But dad wanna use comp, so, I saved it . Okay, going to primary school later on, with Aliyah . Trip to Airport cancelled cause of someone . Nevermind, he has the right . :] . Currently planning with Aliyah where to go after PSLE results is out . hahs , chatting with Shyraa, facebook-ing and plurking and listening to music . My blog music, actually . Not IMESH . I'm so lazy to entertain that guy . Aliyah, u know who kan ? hahak .

Yesterday night, watched a lot of movies . Movie marathon :] . First movie was " Exorcist; The Beginning " . Followed by , " The International ", " The Uninvited " and lastly " Year One " ;] . Watched with Nazrul, Yusri and elder brother . Younger siblings were asleep already . hahs . At around 2.30am, accompanied that to transfer money . Then went back home, continue watching movie . I only like Exorcist, the rest was so boring . =.= . At around 3.30am, met Wyldan and went to mac, again . Supper ! Chey, mcm phm . I drink frappe jer, standard . Then I almost slept at mac , haha . Went back home at around 4.15am and slept :] . Alright, I'm off to primary school . Kay, bye .

" The things about life that I’ve learned is that you’re going to get hurt. You’re going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours. You’re going to suffer some kind of heartbreak, some kind of loss. But you will also have those moments where you heal. Those moments are the best. You feel like you smile for the first time again. You feel like youre alive again. Life just kind of restarts. "

It’s funny how time just flies by so fast when you’re happy, but when something happens and you finally want time to fly by fast, it seems to take forever.

2009-11-26T11:19:00.000+08:00

Today went for NCC Battlebox at Fort Canning Park . Okay luhs, 20% fun and 80% boring . Huahuahua . Went to school at around 11:45pm . Blah blah blah, reached Fort Canning Park at around 1pm . I'm so lazy to elaborate on it . We walked around Singapore . Chey, mcm phm .Urmm, walked here and there uhs , I don't know where . Okay, at around 5.30pm, reached school and went back home . Stopped at Tmart, bought SweeTalk and went to slack with Aliyah at 352 . Then at around 6.45pm, home sweet home lor .
Went back home, did some chores, bathe and went out to Tmart with Aliyah , again . hahs .
Currently listening to musics at youtube . I'm lazy to log in to imesh cause of this stupid fucking irritating guy . hahs . Sumpah, aku mls nk lyn kau . hahak . Okay, Nazrul and Yusri is currently at my house, watching movie . Alright, I'm off . Dad's back . Pfft . Kay, bye .
" Dreams are always crushing when they don’t come true. But it’s the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You’re always close enough to touch but never quite close enough to hold and it’s enough to break your heart. "

Being dumped, taken for granted & hurt by the one they love is the reason why many people choose to flirt than to be in a relationship.

2009-11-24T18:30:00.000+08:00

Currently downloading imesh to computer . I'm super bored right now . Okay, imesh downloaded, currently downloading songs, chatting with Hazirah and otp with Wyldan .
Today woke up damn late . Woke up at 12pm :O . Hees . Yesterday after watching " Taiwan Tornado " ( weird drama name ) at Channel 8, went to meet Wyldan downstairs and make our way to Mac . He ate while I drink Double Chocolate Frappe :] . Around 1am, went to 351 to slack . Went back home at around 2+am . Tuu pon balik tk leh tido . Slept around 3am . Okay, I'm blank right now . I've been updating my blog almost everyday . Haiya, mendak, aper nk buat . And abg, you promised me already uhs . Better give me what I want . If not, i don't want to friend you . Hmph . Kay, bye .

" Malam ku tidur tak lena
teringatkan dirimu
terimbas kembali kenangan lalu
alangkah indahnya bersamamu

mengalir air mataku
menemani malam sepi ku
ku rindu saat bersamamu
sukarnya untuk ku melupakanmu

dahulu engkau berikan cinta
mengapa kini engkau berubah
manakah janji akan setia menanti

jikalau engkau tak lagi cinta
katakan saja , aku tak kesah
dari kau terus membuat
ku menunggu

tak ku sangka , tak ku duqa
perpisahan yanq akan melanda
sudah ku cuba pertahankan
namun dirimu pergi jua

cintamu bagaikan rembulan
yang hadir bila malam menjelang
kau hilang bila siang mendatang

begitulah sikapmu oh sayang

kau lontar cintaku ditepian
ku bagaikan hanyut di lautan
yang lemas di dalam percintaan
dipukul qelombanq keresahan "

- Tak Ku Sangka, Tak Ku Duga . Sedap ;]

" Begin to learn that kisses don’t always mean something. That promises can be broken, just quick as they are made. That sometimes, goodbyes are really forever and always remember to use “I Love you” with extreme caution. Coz if used in a wrong way, someone will end up getting hurt. Remember that it shouldn’t be an everyday word. It also shouldn’t be said just coz you’re expected to say it. Make sure you know how and when to use it coz once you’re inlove,it shouldn’t be that easy to fall out of love. "

it takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

2009-11-23T21:25:00.000+08:00

These were the pictures taken yesterday, during Nadee's 16th Birthday ;D . More to upload, i guess . Waiting for Sarah cuzin to tagged me on facebook, hees . Okay, I'm off . Dad nk pki comp, pfft . Kay, bye .

" Dreams are always crushing when they don’t come true. But it’s the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You’re always close enough to touch but never quite close enough to hold and it’s enough to break your heart. "

Kisses are like tears, the real ones you can't hold back .

2009-11-22T13:01:00.000+08:00

Okay, today will be going to Bayshore to celebrate Nadee's 16th Birthday . I've been repeating that , haha .

Today, woke up quite late , 10.50am :O . hahs . Back to my past time routine :O . Slalu nyer, bgn siang tros msg . Skrg, bgn siang, comp ! hahak . Kay, mepek .

Yesterday slept quite late . Watched Liverpool's match against Man City and Arsenal's match against Sunderland . Liverpool draw, and Arsenal lose :P . After watching Arsenal's match, met Wyldan at void deck . Slacked with him till 2am . We did some 'cathing up' about our life . hahs . Talked about tons of things . Went back home, watch tv and sleep . :] Okay, I'm off . I haven't packed my things yet . Mls nyer nk g . Nvm, I'm sure i't'll be fun :] I love today's weather coz it's not too hot and not too cold :] Good weather for swimming, yeay ! ♥ Kay, lame . Kay, bye .
" Happy 16th Birthday, Nadee ! All the best in what u're doing right now ;D . When Os results is out, tell me :] .Love ya, cuzin ;D ♥ "

" The things about life that I’ve learned is that you’re going to get hurt. You’re going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours. You’re going to suffer some kind of heartbreak, some kind of loss. But you will also have those moments where you heal. Those moments are the best. You feel like you smile for the first time again. You feel like you're alive again. Life just kind of restarts. "

Memories were fine, but you couldn’t touch them, smell them, or hold them. They were never exactly as the moment had been, and they fade with time.

2009-11-21T18:27:00.003+08:00

Earlier today, went to school for Open House . Went to school as early as 7.10am :O . Met Fatin at Esso's bus stop . Then blah blah blah . Had alot of fun marching, hentak kaki and other foot drills . We watched the other CCA performance . Then while watching Chinese dance performing, Farah say, " Join uh . Ur muke kan mcm cine . " I say, " Thanks, but no thanks . " After Open House, went home with Fatin, byk cerite . hahs :| . We alight at Tmart, coz she want to buy SweeTalk . After that, went to 352 to slack . Then, make our way to 353 and slack, haha . Then home sweet home lor ;] .

Went to Tmart with Fika . Firstly, we went to Mac, but then, looking at the menu, ... . So, make our way to KFC . Ate Bandito then proceeded to various shops to purchase Nadee's 16th Birthday stuffs ;] ♥ . Then home sweet home :]

Currently chatting with Nizam . ♥ . I'm so bored ! Okay, I'm off .

Dad, can u give me 20bucks ? I seriously want to buy that book ! :@ .

Happy 13th Birthday, Hazirah ! ;] All the best in ur studies and life, aites ;] Love ya, kecik ;]

" I believe that everything happens for a reason . People changed
so that they you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you
can appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you
eventually learn to trust no one but yourself . And sometimes,
good things fall apart so better things can fall together ."

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

2009-11-20T18:53:00.000+08:00

Today NCC training was fun :] Fatin didn't turn up, haiya . So, went back home with Aliyah, standard .

Tomorrow will be leaving to school early, haiya . Junyuan Open House -.- . Boring . And seriously, I can't wait for 22nd ! Nadee's birthday ;D . Going to Bayshore condo at i don't know where :| .

Laundry is killing me, seriously . What more with the wet weather . Clothes didn't dry fast like how it did the previous months, haiya . Kay, tk perlu . Anyone has a book suggestion ? Not thick books uh, something like True Singapore Ghost Story book ;D . Okay, bye !

Kisses... on the right track. :)

*Kiss on the stomach——-“Lets have sex”
*Kiss on the Forehead ——“Forever you will be mine”
*Kiss on the Ear —-“I’m horny”
*Kiss on the Cheek —-“We’re friends”
*Kiss on the Hand —-“I adore you”
*Kiss on the Neck —-“We belong together”
*Kiss on the Shoulder —-“I want you”
*Kiss on the Lips —-“I love you” OR “I want you”
*Holding Hands —-“We can learn to love each other”
*Slap on the Butt —-“That’s mine”
*Playing with the Ear —-“I can’t live without you”
*Holding on tight —-“Don’t let go”
*Looking into each other’s Eyes —-“Don’t leave me”
*Playing with Hair on Head —-“Tell me you love me”
*Arms around the Waist —-“I love you too much to let go”
*Laughing while Kissing —-“I am completely Comfortable with you

You know how much I wish it was enough .

2009-11-20T00:35:00.000+08:00

Time checked : 12:33am. I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED ! I'M BORED !

Guy Facts

When a guy is quiet,
Hes listening to you
When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes hes wrong
When a guy looks at you with eyes full of questions,
he expects you to leave him soon
When a guy says Im Fine after a few minutes,
he means it
when a guy stares at you,
he thinks your the most beautiful thing in the world
when your laying your head on a guys chest
he has the world
when a guy calls you everyday
he is in love
when a (good) guy say he loves you
he means it
when a guy says he cant live without you
hes with you til your done
when a guy says i miss you
he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else

GIRL FACTS

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around.
When a GIRL answers “I’m fine” after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says “I love you”,
She means it.
When a GIRL says that she can’t live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future.
When a GIRL says “I miss you”,
No one in this world can miss you more
than that.

Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget; it was a hard line to walk.

2009-11-19T23:41:00.000+08:00

I'm bored ! I'm bored ! I'm bored ! Currently plurk-ing, facebook-ing and listening to music . Dad's out, yeay ! ♥ . Siblings are watching i don't know what show, I watched already . And earlier on, they sang The Climb :O . hahs . Tomorrow, will be having the last rehearsal for open house . haiya . I'm bored, there's no books to read already . New Moon is currently at CPC, Breaking Dawn is not that interesting, Eclipse is with Izyan . haiya .Twilight ? Nah, I don't have it :| . hahs . I want to read TSGS Book 19 ! Elder brother really dissapoint me . :S . It's been quite some time since I visited the bookstore :O . The last time I visited a bookstore was with ex-bf, after collecting my hp :O . Lamer nyer . Okay, i'm off . Sneak out or stay ? Hmmm . Nevermind, think I'll stay :]

" Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright. "

If I could, I would . But the choice now, is not mine .

2009-11-19T11:29:00.001+08:00

Okay, I'm bored . So, decided to post . Hmmm . What to blog about ? I don't have any idea. Okay, just changed my musics :P . I'm bored . I'm bored . I'm bored .

Yesterday watched Thailand vs Singapore , delayed telecast . hahs . Okay, Singapore played quite okay luhs . They made it to the next round :] Way to go, Singapore ! Okay, part nie sumpah tk perlu, mepek .

I'm hungry . Mls nk g goreng nuggets . Haiya . Nvm .Okay, off to fry nuggets !

" This life is what you make it. No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes, it’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - hey we’ll act like it anyway. But just remember; some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well they come and go too. And most of them, actually pretty much all of them, are going to break your heart. But you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will ? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about. "

The truth is the hardest to believe .

2009-11-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm updating my blog . Pfft . So lazy to update, but, nevermind . Today had our rehearsal . Okay lah, average . After CCA, had our lunch, buffet . Adam was there too . Kpoy sia . Dtg setakat nk mkn =.= .
Blah blah blah . Currently chatting, facebook-ing and listening to song .

WHAT THE FUCK ?! FAIZAL ISA IS OUT ?! :O :O . UNBELIEVABLE! NADEE, HE'S OUT ! HAHAHHAHAHAK . Ooopss .

Alright, I'm off ! ;D .
"When you remember me, it means that you have carried something of who I am with you, that I have left some mark of who I am on who you are. It means that you can summon me back to your mind even though countless years and miles may stand between us. It means that if we meet again, you will know me. It means that even after I die, you can still see my face and hear my voice and speak to me in your heart. For as long as you remember me, I am never entirely lost."

The greatest thing in life is finding someone who knows all of your mistakes and differences yet still finds you absolutely amazing.

2009-11-16T10:39:00.000+08:00

Okay, blog updated . Added plurk liao . hahs . Random, I'm bored . Okay, bye .

“ I’ve come to realize that life is too short to hold grudges. It’s too short to argue about stupid things with the ones you love, to over-analyze every little detail of every little thing. Whenever I leave a loved one, whether we’re mad at each other or not, I always tell them I love them, because I never know when I’ll see them last. "

To be in love is like jumping off a cliff with no intent of looking down at the bottom. You don’t care if it’s going to hurt like hell when you hit the bottom. All you care about is that for just that short period of time, you felt like you could fly.

2009-11-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

Okay, since Aliyah told me to update, I'm updating . Time check : 12.04am . I'm bored . Okay, not so . Just came back from iffah's house. Went there to visit her new born brother . Cute ! But he's so small, so tiny, so fragile . And Iffah is trying to be a good sister ! Way to go, kecik ! Love ya .

And before we left, Izz Sachok's family came . Had a lot of fun laughing with him and his siblings .Was ironing the clothes and they accompanied me :] I'm laughing right now, thinking about we joke about . hahs . Okay, I'm blank already .

Oh ya, yesterday night, went to mum's friend place then headed to Mr Teh Tarik . Didn't ate anything, just drank Soya Bean :] Okay, bye . Night .
“ I keep wondering where I went wrong. Maybe I didn’t go wrong at all. Maybe things are going to turn out the way they’re meant to and nothing’s going to stop them. Some things are easy to control and work out. But some things you just have to let go. So instead of asking why it turned out like this, I should accept that it is how it is. There is no way to change it, but I can love it. I want to love it. "

The most painful and the worst way you can ever miss someone is if they’re right beside you.. and yet you know you can never have them.

2009-11-13T20:39:00.000+08:00

Okay, today ncc was boring , I don't know why . I don't have the mood to march properly . It feels like as though my body is flying, hahs . Okay, skip . After ncc, slack in school for awhile then met ayeem, gave him his friendship band. Boarded the bus and went to Aliyah's house . Check the movie time and stuffs, changed and off to Century Square :] . Went to NTUC to bought snacks and we stuff everything inside Aliyah's bag. hahs , wth . Then, watched 2012 . Okay luhs, not bad .

I give 3/5 . Mcm merepek gitu . Dunia dah kiamat, tpi maseh ader org hidop, wtf. But all the actions was scary . Imagine the movie is a 3D movie, woah . hahs. Okay, I'm done.

I’m still caught up in the past.My mind still lingers on the way things were between you and I.Now, everything is different.Things are not the same as they were just a few months ago.And it makes me doubt myself..It makes me wonder if I was just dreaming, if it had even happened, or if it was just my imagination confusing dreams with reality.And the only proof there is that you might ever have loved me, even the tiniest bit, is in our old conversations.I’m not sorry that I can’t just forget about the way things were.I’m not sorry that I’m not like you, or that I cannot throw everything away.I cling on to old memories, our old conversations, our inside jokes, and what made you laugh.And yes, it hurts me so much. I wonder how things could’ve gone from that, to nothing.But even though it hurts, at least it shows that I have a heart.At least it shows that all that wasn’t meaningless, not to me at least.Maybe you didn’t think much of it, but I did.And I still do.

You’ll never understand why I hurt so much because you’re not the one who is crying, you’re not the one who is left behind, you’re not the one who loved too much, and you’re not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone.

2009-11-12T19:35:00.000+08:00

Okay, done watching Hannah Montana . hahs . Okay, dad confiscated my phone . Just heck care him . I don't need my phone badly like how i need it the past few months/days . hahs . So, good for me ;] . People won't be messaging and bothering me . Good, I like it :] Okay, I'm perspiring . Panas siakk, nk mandi jap lagy . Okay, bye . And remember, don't msg/call my hp . Home will do :]

Just found out about my Zodiac Sign; Aries -
She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal
frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and
often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real,
so she will feel hurt. She thinks her path has to be a beautiful one. She
thinks only good things so she prepares and always makes arrangement for
herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed.
If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This
seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face mostly
will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slight
tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing or
mixture of character.
Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She
thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize
everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will handle
them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people
that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in
crisis better than many other Zodiacs. Once she determines to do something,
nothing will stop her.
Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another
woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty
dancing; as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek.
She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold
and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she
chooses you, she will need to be proud of you.
“Love” is not as important to her as “Marriage”. Her real goal in life is
“Safety” and her position in other people sight need to be “Secure”. She
plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also
very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance
because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do not
want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love.
She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come
from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth
anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even
when she is not. She likes to make people see her as “secure and confident”
even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you can
tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time.
You never have her all times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some
spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a
“Volunteer” for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely
be a president or a V.P. of a “Club”. She is a romantic and artistic, but
being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful
imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan.
A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high
point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will
not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself now.
Once you look back she already moved up again, quietly but sure.
If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is stubborn,
but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, but in fact
she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing it.

“ Happiness comes in many forms — in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else’s dream come true, or in the promise of hope renewed.It’s okay to let yourself be happy because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be.

2009-11-12T17:19:00.000+08:00

Okay, Aliyah is currently at my house . Gonna watch Hannah Montana The Movie . I watched thrice already :P . Fun oii . hahs, okay, bye .

The important thing is to not be bitter about life’s disappointments. Learn to let go of the past. and recognize that every day wont be sunny. And when you find yourself in the darkness of despair remember, it’s only in the black of night, that you can see the stars.
And those stars will lead you back home. So don’t be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you’ll get everything you wished for. Maybe you’ll get more than you could’ve imagined. who knows where life will take you, the road is long.
and in the end, the journey is the destination.

Mistakes are part of life, everyone makes them, everyone regrets them. But, some learn from them and some end up making them again. It’s up to you to decide if you’ll use your mistakes to your advantage.

2009-11-11T18:32:00.003+08:00

I'm lazy to blog . Let's just summarise .

Monday :

- Ncc training . Fun .

- Went to Bugis St, Bugis Junction and Tmall with Aliyah.

- Bought the 2/4 jeans for $25 :| .

Tuesday :

- Nothing much .

Today :

-Nothing much too .

Tomorrow :

- Going Vivo with Aliyah .

-Watching 2012 .

Smile — It makes a world of difference
Dance — Who knows when you won’t be able to
Cry — Holding those emotions in is bad for you
Kiss — Kisses are the most wonderful things in the world
Laugh — Whats the point in hiding happiness?
Frown — Why no let him know you’re unhappy?
Apologize — You don’t wanna lose friends.
Hug — There's no better feeling being wrapped up close to someone you love
Live — because life is everything.

I still remember all the plans we had . All the movie that was listed to be watched together . One of them was 2012, which we planned to watch tomorrow . And one of them was New Moon . I was really looking forward for that outing . Was really looking forward cause I get to watch my favourite book movie with you . But when I think it through, it's not worth it . Cause if I happen to be obsess in the movie, just like how I did in Twilight . And if i were to watch it again, I'll just have memories of you .

To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

2009-11-10T12:52:00.000+08:00

What's your name ?
- Siti Naqiah .
How old are you?
- 13 :]
Girl or Boy?
- Girl .
The height from your head to your feet?
- 150+cm ?
What is your heritage?
- I don't know . Don't bother asking cause I don't care .
Whats your zodiac sign?
- Aries ! ;]
Shoe size?
- 36/7 .
Where were you born?
- Singapore.
What hospital?
- East Shore Hospital :]
***
Are you in a relationship?
- Nope .
Ever been dumped?
- Yup . A few days ago, wth . hahs .
Do you believe in true love?
- Uh-huh .
What is love?
- Trusting ur partner and be faithful .
Do you love anyone?
- Yeah .
Which of your exs are you still friends with?
- Ridhuan .
Would you get back with any of your exs?
- Depends .
Did your exs do drugs or drink?
- Yes ?.
Who are you with now? (If anyone)
- None .
How long have you been together ?
- Urm . Last rs was 3months, 10days ;]
***
Who was your last kiss?
- Fav aunt.
Who did you last hug?
- Ex bf .
Who did you last yell at?
- Not sure . Younger brother, i guess .
Who did you last tell I love you too?
- Ex bf .
Who was the last one to tell you they loved you?
- Ex bf .
When did you last take a shower?
- Yesterday .
Who did you last think about?
- Ex bf ?
***
What shirt are you wearing?
-Class tee .
Are you listening to music?
- Yeah .
Do you like lead pencils or mechanical pencils?
- Both .
Do you prefer desktop computers or laptops?
- Both .
Do you think you could live without a cell phone?
- Yes,
Do you exercise?
- Yeah .
Are you street smart?
- Huh ?
What do you plan on doing in the next year?
-Study hard .
***
Do you want to get married?
- Urmm .
Where do you want to be proposed?
- I don't care .
Want kids? If so..How many?
- Urmm . 2 is enough .
Where would you like to raise a family?
- Don't bother .
Who do you love?
- Cuzins, family and friends .
How often are you on the computer?
- Depends .
What was your favorite camping experience?
- Urm, Camp Forge ?
Do you laugh at just about anything?
- Yeah ,
If you could have one super power, what would it be?
- If I were to read mind, it won't be fun neither is future . Ah-hah ! The power in getting money easily, u won't understand what I meant.
***
What is the subject(s) u hate the most?
- Chemistry.
What happened at 10a.m today?
-On the phone .
When did u last cry?
- Just now ?
What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
- Bread ?
What do you want in your life now?
-Forget abt him and move on :]
Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up with a hood?
- Don't care .
Who do you hate?
-I don't hate people .
What is your favourite thing to put on your bed?
- My fav red pillow and my twilight saga collection ;] .
What bottom are you wearing now?
-Track pants
What is the nicest thing in your inbox and by who ?
- Alot uh . Ex bf and friends .
Do you wish to make your relationship complicated?
- No.
Are you wearing anything that you borrowed from someone?
- No.
What is the last movie you caught?
- Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs.
What is the oldest message in your inbox n by who.
-"Haha.. Weird are u.. By rite it is so fun msg dengn u.. U release my prob " - Sergeant Farah.
What are you proud of?
- I'm proud of myself . Chey, mcm phm . I don't know .
What was the last song you sang out loud?
-Don't know .
Do you have a nickname?
- Yeah, alot :) .
What does your last received message say?
- "Enta ."
What time did you go to school yesterday?
- 8.10am .
Are you currently happy?
- 50% yes, 50% no .
Which primary school were you from?
- East Spring Primary School.
Are you in LOVE?
- Nope.
Are you happy with your love life now ?
- Nope .
Does that person you love know you like him/her?
-Don't care .
Do you have a best friend that you can talk to 24/7?
-Think so .
Do you have any siblings?
- Yeah.
How many years apart is your mom and dad?
- 2years .
Do you like someone?
- Don't know .I'm blank .
Where is your dad right now?
-Working .
Do you burn incense?
- No?
Closest purple object?
- Nothing . There's no international gay's colour in my house ;]
What is bugging you right now?
- The reason .
How does your hair look right now?
- Don't know .
Do you have any fears?
- Yeah .
What do you hear right now?
- Music .
Can you roll your tongue?
- Yeah.
What are you wearing?
- A t-shirt and track pants .
Who was the last person to message you?
- Aliyah .
Do you like emo kids?
- I don't know.
Rock or Rap?
- Both.
Flying or Driving?
- Driving . I want to drive Honda Civic ^^ .
Was your Valentine's day nice?
- Yeah .
What are you doing now?
- Answering this question, chatting, facebook-ing & listening to songs.
Would you die for someone?
- I don't know.
Do long distance relationships work?
- Depends.
When did you last talk to one of your siblings?
- An hour ago .
What are you doing tomorrow?
- Not sure .
Do you worry about getting older?
- Don't know cause u're getting older one day .
Do you bite your nails?
- No.
Ever gone a whole day without eating?
- No.
Do you own ripped jeans?
- No.
What would you do if you found out that you were adopted?
- I don't really care.
Are you jealous a lot of the time?
- Nope .
Do you use a calendar or day planner to schedule everything on?
- Calender.
Who can make you laugh during the hardest time?
- Not so sure . Depends on my mood . If i want to laugh, I laugh till my stomachache . If not, dream on about seeing me laughing .

Eat less, chew more.

2009-11-08T17:52:00.000+08:00

Okay, today was much much better compared to yesterday . I was awaken by i don't know what , at 5.30am . I checked my hp and read back all the messages you send me . It was sweet when I read it the very first time . But when I read it again, it was all BULLSHIT . I don't know where the hell I went wrong .

when i stop myself from being busy, the bad times roll in automatically.

when the mind plays the bad times, i get agitated, angry and upset.

when i get agitated, angry and upset, i search for my mistakes.

when i search for my mistakes, there are nowhere to be found.

when they are nowhere to be found, the question gets back to you.

i can't see through your words. i can't see through your actions.

you have yet to realise anything. trust me. you have not realised a single bit.

now, you won't. later, you will.

everything i had to say sounds like a repeat bcos..

you just don't get the idea of being in my shoes.

now, you won't. later, you will.

i'm still in pain.

but i'm fine, really.

don't worry about a thing.

i've stopped hoping.

i've stopped wishing.

i've stopped dreaming.

i'm never turning back.

I thanked Erfan, Aliyah, Hazirah, Fiqah Lautner, Shafika, Ayeem, Izz Sachok, Raihan, Iqyn, Fatin & Fiqah for being there when I'm down :] . Thanks, you guys are truly a great bunch of friends :]. But I feel like blaming Erfan cause all his assumptions are true and correct ! :@ . Kenape lah mulut kau masin sgt . Haiya .

I'm sorry if I'm at fault . But seeing you leaving without a reason, that was painful for me to accept. I'm involved, yet, I didn't know a single thing on why and what's the cause of your sudden change. I do really hope you're reading this . I just want ONE explanation and I'll walk off your life without bothering you anymore . Just ONE LAST explanation .

You can’t live your life for other people. You’ve got to do what’s right for you, even if it hurts some people you love.

2009-11-07T17:39:00.000+08:00

"and when she's gone, remember, you once loved her, you once needed her, you once cared about her more than anything in the world. you can't deny she was ever there, you can't deny what you had, you can't deny that it ended over absolutely nothing, you can't deny, that regardless, you still think about it, no other girl could ever love you the way she did she does, one day, you're realise what you've done, you'll come back, and she's gone."

Okay, I'm done giving you chances. I'll just leave as it is. If you want to do something about this, you make the move. If not, just know I've tried and all you did was avoid. That's all I've gotta say. Thanks for your time and love.

Being strong is important. But knowing who you can count on is equally important

2009-11-07T17:16:00.001+08:00

Okay, today sucks . Nah, some people knew about it . So, yeah . Life have to move on, that's what they say .

Breaking up and time out is a totally different thing. when you break up, you suffer a loss. it's like half of you gone. Because you know you can't have him back or treat him like you used to. in other words, there's nothing like a 'next time'. when you have a time out in a rs, at least you know your lover is still yours. he's there for you, somehow. he's not gone. he needs time alone but you know you can get back to him.

the reason why i fought my way to get you back is because i love you very much. till now, i never understood why you wanna break up with me when actually we can have a time out. my friends have been in worst fights more than we do but still, they're together. that's why i can never learn to accept it. that's why i'm constantly down. wondering why you're doing this to me when you said you love me so much. i can never understand that. I hope you're reading this .

Being in love again is like putting myself at risk. i'm afraid of future conflicts. worst yet, breakups. but i tell myself. you're my weakness and strength. you're the one who make me happy or sad. so why should i just let go and give up. bcos i really really really love you. :( it's bloody hard to lose you, you know.

Sometimes you have to give up on people. Everyone that is in your journey is meant to be in your journey, but not everyone is meant to stay there.

2009-11-07T01:09:00.001+08:00

“ Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life. “

“ But love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice, or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation. Love can consign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack the courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life. We have to take love where we find it, even if that means hours, days, weeks of disappointment and sadness. “

Walking away isn’t the hardest. The most difficult thing to do, is telling yourself that you can’t look back.

2009-11-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

Okay, today went back home at around 8pm . Went out from fav aunt's house at around 3+pm, then met Aliyah in the bus, went to Sheng Siong . After that, proceed to Mac . The cashier's eyes were so cute and pretty ! Geram nyer aku ! ugh . Kay, tkper . Michelle maseh nk kan mate aku, giler uhs dier . We did some lame shit, mess up the chilli, ketchup, mayo, curry sauce, sugar and Coffee Mate . hahs . After that, slacked at 350 till 8pm . Okay, night readers :)

“ Don’t waste your time worrying about boys. Boys will come and go. Don’t waste your time caring about the people who don’t like you. Chances are you don’t like them either. Don’t waste your time worrying if people are talking about you. You affected their lives, they didn’t affect yours. Waste your time with friends. Live for the moment, laugh often, be immature, do anything and everything. If it’s something you’ll regret in the morning, sleep late and when you wake up, laugh about it with your friends, cause your friends are what matter most. When you have your friends, you have everything. “

Do u know that it hurts to see how u are now ?

2009-11-06T00:57:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm updating my blog, it looks lifeless . hahs . The past few days, I have been spending time going out with Kak Ina. On Tuesday, went to Orchard with her, did some shopping. We shopping like mad, byk bende . hahs,. I bought Mango tee jer. Then went to Tang to shop for Iffah's dress. We waste quite some time searching for the dress and waste much more time on the size , hahs . After that, I went to fav aunt's house . Dah lamer tk jumpe Iffah, rindu uhs siol . hahs . Then at around 11+pm, home sweet home :] .

Wednesday, did nothing. At night, did some chores .

Today morning, went to Polyclinic, sore eyes uhs, TSK . Went to poly with Aliyah . Then , while waiting for the payment to be made and collecting of my eye drops, we realised, we didn't put the form, idk what its called, forgot uhs . Punyer luhs selenge, hahak . Then blah blah blah . Around 5+, went to fav aunt's house, waited for Kak Ina then went to Clarke Quay . Did some stuffs :/ . hahs . Syok oi . Dah lamer tk rase tuu air , skali beli, mix punyer, minum jer luhs . hehs :/ .

Currently msging bf, pet society and surfing the net . Boring ! Okay, night readers ;D .

"I have make my own decision . I'll stick to it eventhough it hurts some people . "

Forgive even if you can't forget .

2009-11-03T10:29:00.003+08:00

Okay, just came back from jogging with Fika . Fun oii ! ^^ . Today was supposed to go out with bf and Aliyah and Hasan . But then uhs, that Hasan is busy, pfft . And aliyah, last minute, need to attend her friend's birthday party =.= . So, outing was postpone on Thursday .

Yesterday went to East Coast Park for beach cleaning . Nah, ended up, we did nothing. Pfft . But it's worth it :P . Before NCC, met bf for awhile :P . Then blah blah blah . After NCC, went to KFC. Then home sweet home .

Currently chatting with bf at MSN and chatting with Amirul cuzin at facebook . Hees. Okay, bye .

“ The things about life that I’ve learned is that you’re going to get hurt. You’re going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours. You’re going to suffer some kind of heartbreak, some kind of loss. But you will also have those moments where you heal. Those moments are the best. You feel like you smile for the first time again. You feel like youre alive again. Life just kind of restarts.

Trying to fix someones broken heart is like tring to cure a sickness, No matter how hard you try, if you're not the medicine the pain will never go away.

2009-11-02T10:08:00.000+08:00

Heylo ! I'm back in action . Chey, mepek . Currently chatting with Aliyah and bf, conferencing . Okay, bye .

“ In life, people come and people go, but you learn to know that, the people who stay are the ones who will always be there, through all the bull shit, drama, good or bad times. They will be beside you, and you realize those are the only people that you truly need. “

Walking away is easy. It’s the staying that’s so hard, and so painful.

2009-10-31T21:22:00.000+08:00

So, Friday got back our report book . Was promoted to Sec 2 Express, alhamdullilah :D. Wee ! But, not a good time for enjoyment . After school, had to attend NCC meeting for awhile then rushed to I-Hub to meet Mr Tan cause of the counsellor thingy . Waste all my energy going up and down stairs . Pfft .

After meeting Mr Tan, went to the nearest bus stop with bf as it started to rain . Sat at the bus stop for awhile and plan where to go next . Ended up, bf went to school toilet and I waited outside school . While waiting, talked to Irfan & Erfan . Then both of them went off and then came Hazirah . hahs . So, she followed us , but ended up, we send her to 69 bus stop =.= .

Went to Prima Deli, bf bought waffle and then headed to 730 to slack for awhile . Then take 293 and went to Mac CC. But alot of people . So, NORMAL procedure, went to KFC . Bf ate, I'm full to eat already . So, after he ate, headed home .

Today, nothing much happened . Elder brother gave me my 20 bucks . Yeay ! hahs . Tuesday watching Coraline with Aliyah and bf . Don't know who else will tag along . Monday, beach claeaning, AGAIN ! Pfft. Same place, East Coast. Pfft . Haiya. Kao bei luhs .

Tomorrow, urmm, I think I'll just stay at home and do chores :]. Kill time, hahs . Okay, I'm blank already . Bye.

“ So this is when we finally learn the real meaning of change. you do the things you used to be against, you date the people you thought you never would, and you befriend the people you used to hate. You’ll learn what it’s like to have your heart broken, to lose a friend that truly meant something to you, and to feel as if everything is really falling apart. There will be times that your life seems so absolutely horrible it feels like it’s not real. despite all this, good things will come too. You’ll make the most amazing friends that will be there for you even when they probably shouldn’t. Your broken heart will heal once you find the most perfect guy you’ve ever met and just as nothing else can go wrong, things will only get better. There will be the days you are so happy and the days that you feel like dying. drama happens, gossip goes around and people talk shit. Maybe this is just the teenage years, maybe it’s life, or maybe this is just what growing up is. “

Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep people away, but to see who cares enough, to tear those walls down.

2009-10-31T20:45:00.000+08:00

Today went to East Coast Park for CIP . Okay luhs, quite boring actually . Friday getting back report book . Okay, bye . These were the pictures taken . Bye. Next post ! :D

“ Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize all long that you’ve been loved. You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You then learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just one big movie. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you. You love life. You hate life. In the end you just find yourself happy to be living life, no matter what’s thrown at you. “

Everything have to come to an end . Accept it & move on eventhough it hurts alot .

2009-10-28T21:55:00.000+08:00

Okay, it's quite some time since I last post . So, yeah , I'm updating :] .

This week is the post-exams activities . On Tuesday, went around Singapore . Chey, mcm phm . Alah, I lazy to talk about it luhs .

Today's tour was damn boring ! Fucking boring . All the places we went to was very near to our school , pfft . After the tour, met bf and Aliyah and headed to I forgot what block it is. hahs . Slacked there for awhile . Then make our way to Mac CC, alot of people . Changed plan and headed to KFC instead . But still, alot of people =.= . Then went to the interchange KFC instead. Bf and Aliyah ate , I was too full to eat . So, while they were eating, I was thinking how to break my family news to bf . tsk . Aliyah knew about it already, so, jyeah . So, talk talk talk, smpi luhs terckp abt that news . So, got no choice but to tell uhs . haish . So, everyone was in silence for a few mins . And Aliyah was like, " Don't go . I don't want to suffer so much . " hahs . Nah, it's just a MAYBE . And it's like freaking 4-5 years time . I told bf what 'someone' told Aliyah . If what my dad is planning did really come true, both of us need to face the fact, right ? So, jyeah. And bf and Aliyah was arguing who will suffer more . Wei ! It's me okay . I'm the one who will be suffering much much more than u guys, okay .*sigh . After all that, home sweet home :] . Reached home, messaged bf, he was quite 'greedy' about something . tsk tsk tsk .

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back. "

Okay, bye .

2009-10-26T17:51:00.002+08:00

I miss Iffah . ugh . When can I meet her again ? Tsk . The last time I met her was urm, after one of the exams paper . tsk . That was like what, 3 weeks back ? Haish .

Yesterday watched Liverpool's match against ManU . Muahahaha . See, who won ? ^^ First goal was scored by Torres, duh-uh . Mine, okay . Then, the referee add on another additional 5mins, injury time . Man U was about to score, scary sia to watch . Then suddenly, the whole family members were shouting  . Ngog scored in the very last min . hahak :P . So, yeah, Liverpool won :P . Had a fun time kutok-ing the ManU fans expecially Aliyah . Muahahha . Abg Faizal pon kene kutok, padehal ngah kerje . Hahak . Today, woke up, messaged Hazirah, Erfan and Fiqah Lautner, muahahhaha . Siakk jer . :P 

Okay, today stayed at home . Actually, no . hahs . Went to Tmart to collect my lens . Then, slacked at Aliyah's void deck . While slacking, Amalina joined us . hahs . So, we talked and laughed . Then blahblahblah, home sweet home .

Tmrw, school ! ugh . What will i be doing at school ? Ah, urmm . Out for heritage tour, pfft . Mendak per sia .

Currently chatting with bf and amarlina .Ooppss, gossip-ing actually, with Amar . hehe :/ . Amar, standard uhs ehk ? HAHAK . Okay, bye .

“ A heart is a fragile thing. That’s why we protect them so vigorously, give them away so rarely, and why it means so much when we do. Some hearts are more fragile than others. Purer, somehow. Like crystal is a world of glass, even the way they shatter is beautiful. “

I WANT TO GO TO MALAYSIA, please ?

2009-10-24T11:13:00.000+08:00

Currently I'm at Aliyah's place . She asked me to update my blog . So, yeah, I'm updating . Pfft =.= .

Results was dissapointing . Improved on Chemistry ( this was shocking .I thought I failed badly .) , Physics, Geography and Malay ^^ . Deproved on Maths ( :( ) Pfft .

Just came back from Tmart . Currently blogging and messaging bf. Andand , facebook-ing . ^^.
Last night, fav aunt called asked me if i want to go Malaysia . But was tired and sleepy . So, i turned down the offer . Tsk ! Big mistake ! I miss Malaysia, kay, mepek . I'm talking crap , blank siak .

School gonna close in a few days time . I'll miss the laughter and fun with friends, tsk . School holidays are boring ! Urmm, open house sucks . Fort Canning what shit battlebox, sucks . Can I don't go ? Aliyah also don't wanna go . :P SUCKS!

Okay, blank . Byes .

"Ehk bitch, worst enemy ? Aku g skola nk uat kwn, bkn enemy ah ehk .Up to u luhs ehk nk anggap aku as aper . Pfft . No time to entertain these kind of people who have nothing better to do than hating people .G blaja luhs . "

Accept The Way I Am :]

2009-10-20T22:04:00.003+08:00

Okay, I'm bored . No one to talk to except for dad =.= . Elder brother is off to work and both my younger siblings is at my aunt's place . BBOORRIINNGGGGG ! Summary for the past few days - Sunday : -Did the ironing . -Finally, the whole basket of clothes was cleared . (Yeay!) Monday : -Went to Vivo with bf and Hasan . -Met Hazirah and Andrea there . -Watched Imagine That . Not bad . -Watched Project Hope, fun . But pity :( . Today sucks the most . It's better if I stayed home and sleep cause it really did waste my time =.= . First, a stupid performance by i don't know who, old people uhs . Stupid Jazz song , eeewww ! Boring . Then it's break time . Finally ! Followed by a cartoon 'lesson' . Not bad, fun . But I didn't draw anything . Was too lazy to draw, just watched what the artiste was drawing . hahs . Then was the TWMIG Magic Show . I love the last magic show ! Fun ! Eventhough I know it's fake . hees :/ . Home Sweet Home then . Reached home, messaged boyfriend . I asked for some things. Oops, secret :P . Currently blogging and facebook-ing . Bf's asleep . FARAH, MSG ME :@ . Night everyone ! Accept the way i am, can you ?

2009-10-16T22:11:00.003+08:00

Okay, I have not been updating my blog for quite a while . So, here I am to update :] . Finally, exams are over :] . 25% are chores, 15% are worried 25% messaging and 35% enjoyment :] . My sony hp have been send for repair and I have retrieved it . Hehe . Yesterday, went to Eastpoint with Aliyah to repair my phone and elder brother's . After everything that needs to be done were done, we make our way to Century Square . Was quite mad at boyfriend, he knew that the movie that we gonna watch is not at E!Hub, he didn't tell me, grr :@ . So, end up, watched at Golden Village cause the timing at Century Square is quite late, watched Meatballs . 3D, fun :] After the movie ended, went to Food Culture and eat . After that, went to Mac to slack for awhile . Hasan went home at around 5.30 or 5.45pm . Then me, Aliyah and boyfriend went to T1 to slack . Slack there till urmm, i don't know what time. Then went to Open Plaza. Slack there till around 8+ and headed home :] .

2009-10-13T19:08:00.007+08:00

Some pictures of F1s . It's so late to upload cause it's etiher I'm busy or lazy to upload of the blogger. Today papers were urm, not so manageable :| . Especially Chemistry, it sucks the MOST . Pfft . Bio was manageable and that same goes for Physics . One of the chemistry question requires a reason for the answer given . I wrote, " Left . I anyhow guess ." Then, another question, I answered, " Acid is a solution . I don't study for Chemistry :) " Got smiley face somemore :P . After exams, went home straight, too tired to slack around . Went home with Fika. Reached home, went in my room, elder brother was lying on sister's bed . So, I lied down on my bed and throw pillows at him . At last, he woke up and talk nonsense with me, hahak .

1 more to go ~ !

2009-10-12T23:56:00.002+08:00

Okay, time check : 12.02 . Tmrw Science paper . Chemistry confirm plus chop fail :] . Bio and physics hopefully pass liao . Okay, short post only . Bye . Night . Will update more after exams !

3 papers to go ~ !

2009-10-09T12:02:00.003+08:00

Kay, just went back home from school . Just now Literature paper was manageable :] . I'm so sleepy after about 30 mins doing the paper :O . Last page, I scribble everything, was to tired and sleepy to write properly. Hopefully the marker know what I've written . hehe . Tawakkal sua . After Literature, went to SKP with Amarlina then make our way to Tamp Inter to have breakfast . After eating, sat there and chit-chat . hehe . Then home sweet home . hees . Currently messaging boyfriend, listening to music & uploading photos to facebook . The loading is so slow, pfftt . And I think, this blogger also cannot upload pictures, pfft . Bustard sia. ugh, kay. fuck . Okay, bye . I got nothing more to say . "After all these months, I never stopped hoping that you’d come back, but I did stop expecting it. Having your breath freeze up every time the doorbell chimes or the phone rings takes its toll on a person, and whether it’s conscious or not, you eventually make the decision to divide your life in half—before and after—with loss being that tight bubble in the middle. You can move around in spite of it; you can laugh and smile and carry on with your life, but all it takes is one slow range of a motion, a doubling over, to be fully aware of the empty space at your center. "

Oh, dang !

2009-10-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

Okay, another photos of F1 . Sorry, I can't upload all in one go cause I'm scared it'll lag and eventually I can't upload again . haish . Just a quick & simple post . It's 10.06pm and I'm not asleep yet . Tomorrow is Maths Paper 1 :O . Friday is Literature paper .
Gosh, I haven't started reading the damn stupid Clay Marble story . I don't even understand what's the story about . tsk . haish . How I wish Literature would be about Twilight Saga . One level, one book . Kan cool . Kalau laa terjadi, tkyah blaja pon dah confirm pass. Hahs.
Just finished doing my very last revision for Maths Paper 1 . Thought of studying Lit also, but time check, nah, not enought time . So, gonna rush through Literture tomorrow . pfft . Currently chatting with sergeant Farah and messaging boyfriend . Okay, got to go . I want to watch TV and sleep . hahs. Bye . Nitez .

It meant nothing, yknow .

2009-10-04T12:26:00.004+08:00

Okay, this was one of my F1 pictures . Will upload the pictures every now and then . hehe . Today mum cook nasi briyani, wee . hees . Got my favourite dish somemore ! ^^ . Nazrul and Adam is currently studying at my house . Will be joining them in a short while . Just finished talking to Nazrul about The Sims . hahs . We share the cheat codes , hahak . Okay, I'm off to play some games at some website . Later in the day, in the evening, perhaps . Will be going to Hamrina's house, got open house liao . Bye . I don't understand u .

Lifeless, pfft . Such a big ego u have !

2009-10-03T23:40:00.001+08:00

" When you lose somebody, you think you’ve lost the whole world as well. But that’s not the way things turn out in the end. Eventually, you pick yourself up and look out the window and once you do, you see everything that was there before the world ended is out there, still. There are the same apple trees, and the same song birds. And over our heads, the same very sky that shines like heaven. So far above us, that we can never hope to reach such heights. " " If you’re always looking for reasons not to be with somebody, well, you’ll always find them, and I guess at some point you should let go and give your heart what it deserves. "

2009-10-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

Okay, just finished studying Biology with Adam :] . Most of it is study by my own cause when I asked something, the only answer he gave me was, " Huh ? Aper tuu ? Enta, tk tau. " what the fuck . And he's taking his GCE 'N' exams this coming Monday, pfft. He so called 'hari raya' at my house for about 7hours ? From 3pm to 10.15pm . hahs . Padehal dtg nk blaja, but dpt duit raya, syiok ehk ? hahs . Today alot of people came to my house, pfft. Firstly was elder brother's friends . 20 over people sia, pfft. That one only one particular group . The primary school friends haven't come , the soccer friends haven't come and about half of his classmates also haven't come. pfft . After elder brother's frien came, aunt came . After that was Syukri's family . Woah, dah lamer sia tk nmpk Syukri . Semenjak dah join NFA. pfft. Nevermind . He's a matrep already . Why is every guy I know must be a matrep ? Naseb naseb . But this year, he's quite different . Rambot dah tk colour ( nampak sah, skola per =.= ) . Pakai baju kurung, cool ! With samping somemore . hahs . Usually when I went out with his family during Hari Raya, he'll be wearing smart tee . hahs. So, his family left my house at around 7.45pm . Then I make my way to Tampines Mart to pass Amarlina's hp charger and changed money . Then when on the way back home, saw Hazwan at Video 21 . hahs . But don't bother to tegur him, lazy uhs to chat . hahs . Okay, I'm bored . bye.

A good heart is better than all the heads in the world.

2009-10-03T16:26:00.005+08:00

Kay, I've not been blogging for the past few days . Quite lazy actually to on my computer and do stuffs . So, English papers was quite manageable . Malay papers was also manageable . I rushed at the very last 5mins for free writing . hahs . Friday went back home with Amelia . At around 2+ pm, Yazid and Syafeqah came, to study . At around 4+ pm, Nazrul and Adam came . I went inside my room and in the phone with Erfan and Hazirah, conference actually . Then hang up at around 6+ pm . At around 9pm, on the phone with Aliyah and Erfan, conference again . But at around 9.45pm, Aliyah go and call someone else, pfft . So, talk to Erfan then Jun Hui called . So, the three of us conference . At around 10.40pm, all hang up . But I called Aliyah, continue talking to her till around 11pm . And fav aunt called me, say she's on the way to my house, to Hari Raya . So, quickly hang up with Aliyah and sat at living room, waited for her . At around 11.45pm, my sergeant Farah messaged . So, messaged her till around 12.30am, she went to sleep already sia . wtf . So, at around 12.45am, fav aunt left . I quickly went to bed . Sleepy already. While conferencing with Erfan and Jun Hui, I fell asleep . hahs . Currently blogging, listening to musics and playing MSN games with Jun Hui ;D and messaging Fiqah . hahs . I don't know why . Cannot upload photos . Pfft . Biler gambar2 tuu dah ader, nie blogger buat hal . Pfft . Cause it hurts tuu hear what u say that day .