Eat less, chew more.

Okay, today was much much better compared to yesterday . I was awaken by i don't know what , at 5.30am . I checked my hp and read back all the messages you send me . It was sweet when I read it the very first time . But when I read it again, it was all BULLSHIT . I don't know where the hell I went wrong . 

when i stop myself from being busy, the bad times roll in automatically.

when the mind plays the bad times, i get agitated, angry and upset.

when i get agitated, angry and upset, i search for my mistakes.

when i search for my mistakes, there are nowhere to be found.

when they are nowhere to be found, the question gets back to you.

i can't see through your words. i can't see through your actions.

you have yet to realise anything. trust me. you have not realised a single bit.

now, you won't. later, you will.

everything i had to say sounds like a repeat bcos..

you just don't get the idea of being in my shoes.

now, you won't. later, you will.

i'm still in pain.

but i'm fine, really.

                                                   don't worry about a thing.

i've stopped hoping.

i've stopped wishing.

i've stopped dreaming.

i'm never turning back.

I thanked Erfan, Aliyah, Hazirah, Fiqah Lautner, Shafika, Ayeem, Izz Sachok, Raihan, Iqyn, Fatin & Fiqah for being there when I'm down :] . Thanks, you guys are truly a great bunch of friends :]. But I feel like blaming Erfan cause all his assumptions are true and correct ! :@ . Kenape lah mulut kau masin sgt  . Haiya .

I'm sorry if I'm at fault . But seeing you leaving without a reason, that was painful for me to accept. I'm involved, yet, I didn't know a single thing on why and  what's the cause of your sudden change. I do really hope you're reading this . I just want ONE explanation and I'll walk off your life without bothering you anymore . Just ONE LAST explanation .