All I wanted .

Kay, time checked : 2.43am and I'm not asleep yet . Dad's out ! yeay yeay ! hahah . Currently, blogging and messaging Adam . Just finished playing The Sims ;] Tmrw maybe going to Fika cuzin's house . For what, don't ask . Nmpk sah lepak pat rmh dier . haha . Dah lamer tk jumpe per . Bsok, cuzin side mak aku dtg . Punyer luhs , -______________- toot . cbcbcbcb . Pffffffttttttt . haha , talking abt pfft . Adam just asked me, " Btw, aper tuu pfft ? haha ! " -.- . haiya , tuu anak . huahuahua . Kay, bye . Nk off computer, sambung msg n dgr lagu . Night readers ! ;]]

" If only life had a replay and undo button , 

things would have been better between you and me .

But ...

Fuck love,

Fuck you . "

If you can't get someone out of your head, then maybe they're meant to be there .

Okay, I'm updating . Ehk, I talk in malay, can ? Lazy uhs to talk in English . Or maybe I'll be typing in a rojak language . Malay and English mix ;]  Kay, yesterday sleep very late . Kul 11+pm, tgok cite '16 & Pregnant'  then biler advertisement, tgok citer cine pulak . Then dgr MJ12 skjap . Beh biler part musics, tukar citer masak2 . Yumyum . Sdp seyy drg msk . Kalau uat kan utk aku tkper jgak . While watching tv, messaged Adam , hahs. Then, around 1+am, tgok cite hantu ngan dad . Seram siakk . Terkejut aku, ader org gantung diri . wtf . haha . Citer tuu habes kul 3+am . Dad msok tido, i watched tv, cite masak2 all the way ;] Gerek seyy . Around kul 5+am, msk Magee, kelaparan . haha . Then around kul 6+am, msok bilik, bace buku jap, msg adam . smpi luhs mak aku alik keje . aper lagy, dier membebel luhs, duh-uh . tkyah ckp, standard . beh dah gitu, tunggu si adam reply lmbt sgt, smpi aku tertido . huahuahua . Bgn kul 2+pm :O . hehehe .

Woah, first time aku msg adam smpi gitu lamer, huahuahua . We shared some 'secrets' . He asked abt the standard Qs, ppl asked me . maybe it had happened for quite some time that i didn't cried while I told him everything :] That's a good sign :]

Currently I'm blogging, msging Adam (haha) , plurk-ing and listening to musics at ipod nano :]

Kay, dah. nk g maen The Sims . WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ;DDDDD . Dah lamer oii tk maen tuu game . hehe . This sat ader BBQ . Haiya, mls nyer nk g. Family maybe overnight . But I don't think I will. due to some things . :s . Kay, bye .
 " Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back .  
But . . 
Fuck love, 
Fuck you ."

If you haven't cried, your eyes can't be beautiful .

Coach ;

Poppy signature swingpack - $118

Poppy tartan large wristlet - $98.00

Madison op art sateen mini skinny - $38.00

Small ball chain heart necklace - $128.00

Patchwork bangle - $78.00

Bebe ;

3/4 Sleeve Scoop neck Tee - $44.00

Sparkle Logo V Neck Top - $49.00

Las Vegas tee - $99 .
 Armani Exchange ;

Glitter Logo T-shirt - $38.00 

Mango;

Red tee - $19

Zara ;

Zara tee - $40
Total : $749 :O .
Sesiape yg baik hati dan kaye ? Belikan aku brg2 pat ats tuu . hahs . haiyayayayya ! I want all the clothes and wallets . pffft . Yg ader full detail tuu, aku check pat wesite sendiri , Yg mcm simple simple, tee tee tuu semue, phm2 jer luhs. Survey sendiri pat kedai dier :X . hahahak . If I get to shop all these clothes and stuffs, I'll shop at Orchard . Cause most of the outlets is there . Senang sikit, kankan ? hahs . Kalau dpt beli, aku nk ajak Kak Ina , kakak sedare aku yg teramat aku syg . muahahaha ! Enta luhs ehk, mcm gerek gitu shopping ngan dier . Maklom lah, dier kan ader mental breakdown sikit . hahak . And yeah, cpat cpat upload gmbr2 pat seoul garden . Dah luhs lmbt upload, charge pulak tuu . Kalau murah tkper, mahal nk mampos . $5 per picture ?! Mak datok ! Kalau 3 gmbr, blh aku beli burger bru pat Mac . Meal lagy uhs . Kay, time checked : 1.03am . Nk g tgok Liverpool against Arsenal ;DD . Liverpool 1 Arsenal 0, half time . Hopefully Liverpool will win tonight :] Hidir's currenly at my house . Biase, Arsenal nyer supporter . Actually kan, dier ngah tido pat sofa . hahah . Kay, bye . Fuck ! Liverpool 1 Arsenal 1 . pfft ! Torres, do ur job, baby !

When I was just about to give up, I remembered why I held on for so long.

Okay, I'm updating my blog :D . Let's re-cap what happened the past few days .

7th December :

Met fav aunt at Tampines MRT Station . Train-ed to City Hall and make our way to Marina Square Seoul Garden :] . Iffah was hungry already at that point of time . hahs . Searched for the outlet for quite some time . haha . selenge kan ? hahahak . So, finally , we found it . We ate for about an hour ? Then make our way to Esplanade to cut the cake :] After eating the chocolate cake, walked around Marina Square and headed to fav aunt's house. Reached her house, I took off my contact lens and went to sleep . At around 6+pm, was awaken by mum's call -.- . pffft . Ader jer yg kacau . Then around 9+pm, woke up . Kak Ima was home so, talked to her . We laughed when I told her what happened that afternoon . Then around 9+pm also, went to Pasir Ris, Kak Yani's house . Then me and younger brother was supposed to go back home ;] . But, uncle said he want to go to Changi , tgok airplanes , -.- . Lame ehk pakcik aku ? Mcm bdk kecik pulak dier . hahahak ! Wei, but dier baek okay. Ilovehim :] . Biase, pakcik aku tuu, kalau keluar, tkleh g satu tempat, kene merayap . hahs . So, after Changi, uncle drove along this deserted road . Seriously, there's no cars . Then out of a sudden, we're at East Coast ! Wow, cool ehk ? haha . Then we urmm 'walked' around Orchard . Dudok dlm kereta jer, tgok lampu . haha . And, home sweet home :]

8th December :

Met Hazirah at Tampines MRT Station . Train-ed to Plaza Singapura . Purchased our tickets ;] . Watched New Moon , weeeeeeeeeeee ;DDD . Like, finally sia . I thought I'll not be watching it cause I planned it with ex-bf, to watch it together . But, God doesn't allowed it . So, yeah . HE have a good reason why good things is not for long ;] . We reached around 1.30pm, but we watched the 2.50pm show, wtf . hahs, hazirah uhs nie . So,we walked around . Then suddenly, got this guy, haha . I was about to turned to the escalator when he suddenly approached me and asked, " Boleh jadi kawan ? " I was like, " Errrr. " And I shook my head and walked away . hahah . Then me and Hazirah walked very fast cause that guy is behind us . haha . Then, we watched New Moon . It's a blast, mann ! I give 5/5 !  HAHAHA . Then we had our dinner at Pizzahut ;] After that, train-ed to Ochard . Waited for Hazirah's dad and we walked around Orchard . I wanted to go to Ochard Central, but, most of the shops is closed cause it's weekdays -.- . Then, home sweet home :]

9th December :

Went to Giant with NCC Seniors and cadets ;DD . Fun seyy . Went out at around 11+am, and reached home around 7+pm . Punyer lamer . Actually, I'm so lazy to elaborate . We had our luch at Open Plaza . We ate Long John Silver . Then make our way to GIANT :] . Then while waiting for Dina and others, saw Kak Yani . So, talked to her for awhile :] . Kay, dah .

10th December :

The moment everyone is waiting for . hahs . NCC BBQ ;DD . Was supposed to meet Dina, Hilman , Aliyah and Adam at Dina's grandfather's house at 10.30am, but ended up the house keys went missing . So, wasted about 30mins searching for it . Finally, I'm out by 11am ! haha . But as usual, Adam is the one who's late . standard . byk dier nyer otw . otw, tpi sempat top-up lagi . hahs . So, we cab-ed to E.C.P . Then, waited for the others to come :] . And at 2.50pm, rent a bicycle for 2hrs. Lamer ehk ? Cause 1hr rent, 1hr free ;D . blahblahblah . Mls nk elaborate . Pictures is at facebook . But not my profile ehk . It's at Yanti's , Musq's , Aliyah's , Insyirah's & Shyraa's profile :] . hees .

11 December :

Nothing happened ! 

12 & 13 December :

-Ader jemputan .

- Ader family day pat E.CP lagy . pfft .

- Boring giler babi . sumpah .

- Skrg pat rmh ex aku . bye . nk g tgok New Moon .

Do what you want . It's your life, your decision . But remember, there's a weak one & a strong one. CHOOSE who you want to be .

It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done .


In a perfect world, ex-boyfriends would transfer schools and only reappear to confess tearfully how much they miss you - and by then, you'd have moved on to dating guys who are hotter than Joe Jonas. But in the real world, the pain of a break-up can leave you feeling broken. It's like one minute, you're texting, kissing and loving this person - and the next, you're crying into your pillow, praying he'll call, and wondering if you're always going to feel so totally, or completely alone. 


They say, "No man is worth your tears."
True but i bet no one follows to that rule. girls can't help but to weep everytime regardless of being happy, sad or angry. by crying out loud, it helps to release the pain and sorrow drowning in. at times there is no point in shedding tears because those selfless blokes don't deserve our tears. here we are suffering from heartaches, there they are enjoying their lives away. like wasting your text msgs yet they don't bother to reply or get back to you. having a fight in one day but ignores to solve it the next day. so why?
It is definitely not an easy task to ignore your love because you're so used to grabbing the phone and text him right away. i think it's time to rest on my laurel and ignore. i'm getting used to it already. in fact, my heart's at ease. girls try so hard but guys refuse to appreciate and acknowledge our good deeds. i'm tired of 'chasing cars' you know. even if my day gets ruined by our tiff, i look forward to the day after hoping for a better tomorrow for me. i'm still waiting for it. i'll just wait."

The fate of love is that it always seems too much or too little .

I'm fucking bored right now .  Oh ya, I'm not at my house . I'm at Woodlands :] . So, if u need anything, just text or call my phone aites :) Mum and aunt is sleeping -.- . They woke up i don't know what time, bathe, watch tv and off to sleep again . pffft . Mum nowadays . tsk tsk . hahak . I'm currently waiting for Izz Sachok to come . haiya . Punyer luhs lmbt . haiya .

Today woke up at around 10+am . Was awaken by Izz Sachok's message . Stupid, uat kacau jer .  Woke up, replied him and went to the living room and sleep again till 12.45pm . ahaha . I want to go to 7-11, but no one to accompany me . pffft . bored sia .

When I was eating my lunch, fav aunt messaged me and I called her . Discuss everything about tomorrow , time and stuffs . Gonna be very busy these days . And hopefully, siblings and dad has been doing the chores . At least, it'll lessen my things to do list . ;] . I think, I'll stop blogging from now on . Will update at the end of this week .

" Make sure god has his good reasons why good things come to an end. So that better things can fall into place. That was the last time. so long.. "

Rembering me, discover and see .

Kay, I'm back from Malaysia ! xD . Had a fun time at Malaysia .Went to uncle's house at around 3+pm, waited for everyone to come, and we left the house . Before going to uncle's house, went to withdraw some cash and bought my contact lens ;D .Reach Malaysia around 5+pm :O . Late, I know . Cause it's jammed . pfftt. Went to i don't know who's house . Jemputan luhs katekan . Then after that, around 6.45pm, I asked uncle to bring us to Jusco cause there's Mango outlet there . hees :/ . When we're on our way to Jusco, stopped at Pandan City for awhile . Uncle and aunties bought DVDs .Whereas me and Sara bought Bubble Tea at ' Each A Cup' . After that, continue our journey to Jusco ;D . Reached Jusco, parked the car and went in the shopping complex . When the escalator went up, the very first outlet I saw was, ' MANGO ' ! Weee ;D . Apelagi, tros masok tuu kedai . Went to survey the tees there . Told mum I want this particular tee . RM45 jer, means around $20+ . Normal price mahh.  Skali, mak  tertinggal wallet pat dlm kereta. Haiyaya . So, after I have decided which colour I want to buy, we waited for uncle to finish his prayers and went back to the car and take the wallet -.- . Bought the Mango tee , white in colour ;D . Kalau tk, nk beli long sleeves nyer seyy . Skali, tk accept Singapore dollars pulak . Haiya . So, we proceed to the supermarket and bought  stuffs . When we're on our way there, saw Guess outlet . I catch a glimpse of a long sleeve tee . Nice, but I'm lazy to go in and survey .. hahs . Never mind, when mum gets her pay next month, I'll drag her to Jusco again . hahahak .

After shopping at Jusco, uncle bring us to don't know where to eat . Luckily, there's no cats . Cause before we proceed to that place, I said already, " Naqiah tknk g tempat yg ader kucing ehk. " I'm cerewet when dining out, so ? Got problem ? haha, lucky he take my words seriously ;] We ate at i don't know where. And I swear, I hate the kind of service they gave us . We waited for about 45mins  ? Then our food come . Pffft . But in between the waiting, it was fun uhs . I cracked a lot of lame jokes about the chef  . hahak . And when the staffs came, I say, " Dah dah, shhh . Org dier dtg . " hahak, after eating, went back to Singapore lor .

When we were at pandan mum saw New Moon dvd is out . Then she say, " Ehk, kak, nie cite yg kau nk tgok . " I say, " Ah ah . Alah, nie semue pirated luhs . Citer bru keluar, dah kelaur pat dvd .  Merepek . " Then mm say " Okay . I buy, u don't watch . I on the movie, u go inside ur room. " Then I say, " Okay lor . "

hahs . Ended up, she didn't buy it cause even the shop owner says, it's not really original -.-. fuck you .

Hmm, what more should I blog ? Haiya, no idea lehh . I'm super bored right now .

Yesterday on the phone with Mira cuzin from 12.45am till 5.30am :O :] . Fun siakk, mcm mcm yg kiter bobal . I told her some of my thoughts . But when I told her, all the questions came back to me . haiya . It's fucking hard yknow . && it's bloody hard to lose you, you know. *sigh . If I have this power like Siobhan . Wonder who she is ? tkyah tau .nk tau, g bace buku breaking dawn sendiri . If I have that special vampire gift from Siobhan, things will not turned out this way . I hate it . Why am I still living in past ? Omg . move on.move on.move on. Around 2+am, Fika joined us ;]

Mira : Kay, naqiah, kau nk kahwin age bape ?

Me : Enta luhs . Lpas uni and dpt stable job uhs siol . Fika ? 

Fika : Aku ehk ? Hmmm . 23 uhs . tgok uhs . ( I've forgotten uhs )

***
Then, we discussed who'll be our future husbands based on our ex(s) or crush . hahahhak . Mepek sia, sumpah . We talked about what will our berkat be, how much is the hantaran , bape byk dulang nk, honeymoon countries, what's our dulang things, the catering, where it'll be held, total expenditure . And after marriage, how many maids we want, what type of house we want, the cars we want to own, how many rooms will there be in our house, how many kids we want , what will their name be . Some more what uhs ? I think that's all uhs .  

After that, me and Mira talked about other stuffs and she bring up the topic about Syukri .Siakk . I don't know he'll change to that extreme . wow ! Truly grown up huh, syukri ? Not bad . I didn't expect him to change out of a sudden . In 3 months, u changed like fucking , wow ! *speechless . Fika hang up at around 4.30am . Whereas me and Mira hang up at around 5.30am . Went to bed at around 5.45am ;]

Kay, I want to sleep already, it's 3.30am liao . haiyo .Night readers ;]

" It's either you stay or you leave . I think, it's better of you leave . "